IT GETS BETTER! I promise you can move beyond this - high school can be the lowest point of a persons life and you have amazing years ahead of you.
Also, your story isn't typical - you lost your dad! That is unbelievably sad and stressful and awful. Do you have a close relationship with your mom? Please sit down with her and tell her how you are feeling and that you've reached out here for help. You can share the links below with her too.
I would like to point you to some crisis resources. If you feel that you are in danger of hurting yourself, please, please, please pick up the phone or communicate with another person "in real life" (aside from online). Click this link here or paste into your browser: "If you are thinking about suicide... Read this first" : and there are more numbers and links here: WebMD Crisis Resources
Next, delete that Facebook page! Social media is not good for one feeling vulnerable. I have to step away from my page when I'm having a bad day and it helps. Also, if anyone asks why, you don't owe them any reason. You'll have more time to pursue activities that make you feel good about yourself! I do hope you've ditched the weed too. (it sounds like you have, if so BRAVO! If not, let me know and I can provide you some resources.)
THANK YOU for posting here and giving me the opportunity to tell you what a brave and smart and caring person you are! You're a cat lover - you have to be!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry you didn't received immediate feedback femfatal!
I urge you to pick up the phone and find help off-line ASAP. We have crisis resources here that can put you in touch with someone immediately: Crisis Assistance Resources
Our expert does address medical questions but I can't guarantee that he will answer within a few hours or days. Please keep checking this post for additional comments! (You can click the "watch this discussion" link at the bottom of your original post to be alerted to new responses.
Although you are no longer called to your previous "Super Mom" duties, I know that you can find the right meds to feel better again! It sounds like you and your son have a special bond. Please keep in touch with him as well to stay safe.
Again, I urge you to click the crisis resources link and pick up the phone (((HUGS))) to you -
"Slump" is how I describe a series of dark days as well - I'm sorry to hear that you're in the middle of one
(((hugs))) to you!
Can you get to your doctor to address the medication, iron and vitamin D? I know that one tiny adjustment or change can make a big difference - good or bad - but let's go with GOOD!
14 months old is adorable....and CRAZY! I can imagine that is adding to your anxiety.
Re: hobbies. What do you enjoy doing? Where I live there are many free/affordable programs and activities available through Parks & Rec, public libraries, museums, etc. One year I decided I would try out yoga so I researched every studio and took the "one free tryout class" at all of them. Getting out trying something new might lead you to a place where you find a passion you haven't discovered before.
Please keep posting here and let me know what city/state you live in. I can find anything with my best friends Dr. Google - might be able to provide some resources.
Another (((HUG))) to you!
p.s. If Thanksgiving is too much, you know you can cancel - tell the family to meet at a restaurant or another house!View Thread
I'm so sorry you are having a hard time! WebMD mods do not write to members directly. However, you can send an email to CommunityManagement@webmd.net and we'll be happy to reply.
I strongly encourage you to get some off line help. This community can support you but we can't pick up the phone for you or be with you in person. Please take those steps yourself to stay safe. I'm not a doctor or nurse and can't provide you with medical advice or crisis intervention services. But, you may wish to click or paste the following URL into your browser's address locator for our crisis resources:http://www.webmd.com/help/crisis-resources . As always, if you think you might have an emergency, please call your physician or 911 immediately.