It sounds like you are having a rough time - I completely understand the feeling that you don't have any time to yourself. When you're watching three kids, you don't!
Lexismom has a good suggestion to revisit medication. Taking your husband with you to an appointment is a great idea. I'm guessing that your in-laws are not medical professionals? Please do pick up the phone to make an appointment today!
The best thing I did when I was home with my kids was to enforce a mandatory "Mommy 30 Minutes" time right when my husband walked in the door. I would either take off out the door for a walk, lock myself in my room with a book or take a long shower/bubble bath. My husband wasn't crazy about it but once he saw that it helped my mood, he was on board.
It also helped to get out of the house with the kids. Just a walk around the block was helpful and I also thought taking a picnic to a pretty park helped me feel better.
Please keep checking back in here - feeling isolated is one of the biggest challenges of being home with kids!
(((HUGS))) to you Anon. I'm so, so sorry for your loss! I'm sending positive thoughts to you and your children during this time
I'm glad that "Wake Up!" spoke to you! I suggest standing up and making the bed. I know that sounds so trivial but it helps strengthen my resolve that I won't go back and lay down. (Being horizontal has never helped my depression)
I know it's hard to believe, but your head will clear and you can find YOU again! Here's a resource that has some info. Maybe you can get some good ideas (although you sound like you have a fantastic support system in place: Managing Your Grief - Home Treatment .
How old are your children? Are they still at home?
Hey Jaws. It sounds like you are having a rough time. Please check in with your doctor or therapist! I'd also like to point you to the WebMD Crisis Resources Links. Please pick up the phone if you feel that you are in danger of hurting yourself: http://www.webmd.com/help/crisis-resources
I'm glad you reached your destination safely and hope you will reach out off-line for support -
Congratulations on your pregnancy! When is your due date? Boy or girl? This is such an exciting and stressful time under "normal" circumstances, I'm sorry you are dealing with the added stress of a depressed husband.
I encourage you to make that appointment for your husband. Not only a therapist but he should see his primary care physician to get a full physical assessment. Sending you big (((hugs))) today - please keep checking in!
(((hugs))) to you - I'm glad you've found this community. You'll find others here who can relate.
Hurting yourself is never the answer.
You may wish to contact the Covenant House Crisis Counseling Center at 1-800-999-9999 if in the United States, or at 01-753-53713 outside the U.S. Another option is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK.
Also, WebMD offers an extended list of crisis resources on our site. Please click or paste the following URL into your browser's address locator: http://www.webmd.com/help/crisis-resources . As always, if you think you might have an emergency, please call your physician or 911 immediately.
Glad to hear that you are doing better today. Please continue to reach out for support and information. I know what it is like to feel like you are on a deserted island - you are not alone! Our community is open 24/7