First of all, there is nothing odd or unnatural about being a people pleaer or caring about what others think. It's a natural enough part of life, considering that humans are social beings and many of us are just wired that way. So there's nothing really wrong with you there.
That said, you always want to make sure that you don't care so much about what other people think that you forget to care about yourself. You need to keep in mind that you are just as important as everyone else and therefore you should take what other people do and say with a grain of salt. That's one of the hardest things to do, for me.
You are absolutely right, writing things out helps a lot. It clarifies thoughts and also helps you vent. This community can be great for that!View Thread
Well, we can offer support here and provide a safe place to talk and vent. There are in person support groups too. Sorry this response was so short but I didn't want to neglect welcoming you.View Thread
It sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now. Depression is entirely understandable and I can see why the meds don't work. It sounds like if your situation got better, your depression would get better. So there's nothing wrong with you, yourself. You are having a natural reaction to a tough situation.
The thing to do now is try to figure a way out of the situation you are in, and I know you are doing that. Your mom meant a lot to you, on a lot of levels, and I sympathise with your loss. Is there a way you could help your father understand about your disability? Perhaps share articles with him, or talk to him about it? Maybe then you can talk together about what would be best to help you be happy?View Thread
I just wanted to let you know that it is entirely possible for all the symptoms you describe to be either side effects of your medications, or simple anxiety and stress. The mind has an amazing ability to make you feel horrible in really creative ways if it doesn't like the situation it's in. You want OUT of the situation you are in, I don't blame you, and one of the ways of expressing this is by feeling absolutely awful. None of it is voluntary or planned. If you want to stay where you are and improve your situation, a counselor may help you with the mental side of things and your doctor may help you with the physical side of things.
It's probably not a rare illness like Insomnia fatalis, but it's best to check. Good luck!View Thread
Caregivers need support too, you are absolutely right about that. You'll find friendly "ears" here, or at the Friends and Family support community, but you might want to see if you can find a little support at home as well. Even carving out a half hour of "me time" now and again can do wonders. Failing that, some of your favorite musing during your commute, a hot bath, anything that's just for you and only you. You need as much support as anyone else. My spouse has a lot of chronic pain too so I understand how tough it can be.View Thread
Hi, MIchelle! Welcome to the community. I just wanted to say, please don't add to your burden by feeling guilty about talking about your problems. You need to be able to vent too, and pain is relative. Everyone's pain is important, everyone's struggle is imporatant. You reaching out gives someone else the opportunity to reach back.
I can really understand your feelings right now. A love that is lost or in doubt is such a painful thing. Especially with everything else you are going through! You can make it, but don't forget to take care of yourself and take time to mourn if the relationship really is over.View Thread