I'm sleeping 4-6 hours. I'm still feeling depressed. My husband left for Montana today. It's our other property. We presently live in Upstate NY. I do miss him already. I feel so lonely. My heart aches, my stomach hurts. I want out of this world so badly. But I can't do it to my family.View Thread
I suffer from major depression, anxiety, PTSD. I was taking seroquel also for years and gained 80 lbs. I'm now off the seroquel and on Tramadol and it makes me sleep without weight gain. I also take cymbalta and valium, Lithium and Lamictal. The Lithium does make you gain weight, but if I don't take it I get suicidal. I'm 51, 5'7 and weight 262.View Thread
Hello, My depression is back because of my lonlyness. I do everything my myself. I get very lonely. Me being abused as a child has brought down my world. I get through it but it never goes away.
As far as my husband and myself it's all my fault for my feelings. I was abused as a child for 6 years sexually. I tried to get help but nobody believed me so I was on my own. An 8 year old is suppose to have no worries in the world, but I had the world on my shoulders. No matter what I do I never forget this. Now thinking back I don't want to hug my husband or kiss him and especially I don't want to have anything to do with a sexual relationship with him or anybody else. He deserves better.
I take a lot of medicine. I have a good share of pain medicine and I am suppose to take 1 50mg tablet. Instead I take 5 tablets at a time. My therapist knows this and wants me to bring it in to her so she can dispose of it. I'm also taking weight loss medicine and she wants me to stop that also.
I don't want to hurt anymore. I just want out of this world. JayneView Thread
I have been so depressed for a long time, but it was getting better but it's back in full force. My sleeping medicine serequel isn't working anymore. Last night I took the serequel, then tossed and turned and then took tylenol pm and tossed and turned some more then took benedryl and continued to toss and turn all night. This routine has been going on for weeks. I've had it I just can't cope anymore. I'm so low that I'm thinking about my past abuse as a child and can't find any good to think about. I'm married 30 years this September and wonder if I will make it that long. I don't want to kiss or hug my husband and have no desire to ever have sex again with my husband or anybody else. Everything seems to be coming to an end and I don't know how to pick myself up. All this is coming on at the worst time as my husband is leaving on Monday for a trip to another state and I don't know when he will be back. I will be so alone. I have no friends so I will be free to do what ever comes my way. Maybe being alone will give me the will to say goodbye to all. BBView Thread
My daughter is 29 and just started ADHD medication. They put her on 20mg of Ritalin. Problem is she has trouble taking medication due to Migrane headaches. The Ritalin is doing that. She has stopped taking it because of them.View Thread
My husband would take the time, but he works so many hours in a day I don't want to bother him. I keep my feelings to myself and that has always been a problem with me. My husband senses the pain and trys to get me to talk but I won't. I don't know how to make that any better for myself as to opening up to others. Somebody can yell at me and I just take it and don't yell back. My husband is going to be leaving next week to go to Montana for 3 weeks. My therapist says maybe the time apart will make me miss him and things will change. BBView Thread
I'm so lonely. My stomach is in knots. I'm dealing with a lot of pain. Nobody to talk to except my therapist every 2 weeks, but it's not enough. I have a lot of family issues going on and I just can't handle them alone anymore. My husband wants to know what's going on in my life but to busy to help me out. He's leaving for 3 weeks on May 20th into June. I've been over taking my pain pills. They help mello me out along with the valium I'm taking and other medications for Depression, Anxiety and PTSD. I've been dealing with so much pain I'm tired of seeing Dr.s and I'm at the point of wanting life to just take it's course. I don't want to be here anymore and I don't want to deal with the struggles anymore. BBView Thread
I had over 50 ECT shocks in a 4 year period. I went through a lot of medicine before they considered it. I was hospitalized for suicidal tendencies and that's when they tried ECT and it worked so over 4 different hospitalizations they did ECT on me. Then put me on medicine. I was in the hospital for 30 days at a time. I lost a lot of my memory when I had the ECT and even now I haven't recalled those memories. They use ECT as a last resort. Good luck. BBView Thread