For me, clinical depression is a blow to the body and the mind. For me to get everything biologically right again, I have a psychiatrist and counselor that I work when I need to. I really recommend creating a support/treatment team because being depressed feels extremely lonely to me and anxiety is just relentless. My best wishes go out to everyone suffering from depression. Until you've experienced it, I don't think anyone can truly understand the toll it takes. Especially as a wife and mom. I always put me last and feel guilty doing anything for just me. And I am looking at 5 baskets of clean clothes wishing they would just fold themselves...View Thread
Be well, friend. It sounds like you are in incredible pain but still putting one foot in front of the other. That takes so much strength and courage. To me, so much of this comes down to brain chemistry and the negative self talk we do when we don't feel well. I can see your frustration and fatigue. And you are making yourself go and do things! How fantastic.
It sounds like your friends really care about you. Friends also know us really well. Hospitalization definitely keeps you safe but it also gives you the opportunity to be re-evaluated medically and maybe get you closer medications that work better for you. You can feel better and you are trying so hard. Sometimes I have to reevaluate my doctors to make sure I am getting the best care possible. Bless you.View Thread
Thank you so much for your kind offer,sweetiepie! I did actually get two baskets done and you are motivating me to do some more. I learned over time that what was best for me was to spend as little time as possible with negative and toxic people and to surround myself with positive and caring people to operate at my best. Some of the toxic people are in my family, so it's a dance. My sister died of cancer when we were younger but I was not properly diagnosed until my teenage years with depression. I have a few people I have shared with that I have recurrent major depression. My team is my husband, my dad, two co-workers, and three close friends. Medically, I have a great psychiatric nurse practitioner and a counselor. These are the folks that are okay with me being me when I'm not so hot. With everyone else I try to have that "fake it til you make it" mask on til I get better. I think your efforts to help DH are terrific. Through trial and error, I have found that it helps, no matter how awful I am feeling, to tell my hubby how wonderful he is and how I appreciate him taking care of me and then I make sure he goes to the jui jitsu classes he loves. And, he's going to have a few individual sessions with a counselor so that he can be heard. I have my own individual sessions. He tells me that it's difficult to talk to his friends about his wife going through clinical depressions and he feels trapped. I think it will help him to get gain some insight. For quite a while we dealt with resentment because he thought there were times when I just chose not to do anything and he had to do a lot more around the house and with our son. He is closer to understanding that it's not a choice. Who would make that choice? Hope this helps. Take care!View Thread
Hi Anon, it sounds like you have been through so much for such a long time. What incredible survival skills you have! Which tells me you have the strength to get away from your husband. The cycle of domestic violence is just awful but I know you can break it. Right now, the most important thing is your physical safety. You deserve to feel safe and to be able to take care of yourself.