Sorry to hear about your situation. Women do have problems putting everyone before themselves. You're not alone with this one. You do need to take care of yourself or you will be of no help to anyone, plus a big drain on your husband. He has stood by you against his family. That says a lot for him, don't you think? You should celebrate his devotion to you rather than "not being the same since". Your husband has no control over what his mother says, but he took control by choosing you. You don't say what health problems you have, unless it is your depression. That means that you need to set boundaries on what you do.
Men typically don't express feelings very easily as women do. But he has certainly made his feelings known about his job. What more do you want from him? His feelings are very painful and he has told you about them. Why do you say that him talking about quitting his job means financial trouble rubs off on you? Is that because you want to quit your job? Then you can tell him that, since he has said pretty much the same thing to you. Now are you sharing your feelings with him?
It sounds like you got burned out helping your brother way too much. But that is now done with and you feel good about doing it. You don't say why your brother can't work or drive or help his parents who he is living with. That would help things.
I think that you need to set boundaries on your obligations to your parents and brother. Perhaps you could go visit them just one day a week. Did you say it was an hour drive? Then take 4 to 5 hours out of your day to visit them 2 or 3 hours. Or make it once every 2 weeks or whatever you are comfortable with. Unless you have no feeling for your parents, they aren't going to live forever and you will probably feel terrible if you don't go to visit them at all. But that should still give you time for yourself.
Let me know where I am wrong on your situation, because I may be way off. Really let me know. I do feel for you and you do have options to help yourself. You take care. SaraView Thread
Prednisone is for allergic reactions and skin conditions among other things. A maximum dose of 80 mg is indicated, so I think that you are asking for trouble by going to another doctor and accusing his GP of screwing up. But yes, Prednisone can cause psychiatric side effects including psychoses and behavioral changes. How long these effects should last, I don't know. You should inform the doctor about exactly how bad your father is so that the doctor can make a better diagnosis. But when he tells you that he will kill you, you need to get him to a hospital for your safety and his safety. Don't be lax about it. It could be fatal.View Thread
I don't know that anyone knows for sure, unless they have been dead.
BUT, the bigger question, is why are you thinking of suicide? Is your life so bad or is it because of pain? What is your pain from? Let me know. I have thoughts on it having been very suicidal in my life.View Thread
Can you get some counseling to help you through a very difficult time with the deaths in your family? Also it sounds like clinical depression is a genetic trait that runs in your family. Have you tried MAO Inhibitors such as Nardil? That is a more unusual one which I felt the best that I ever felt on that one. If have tried it also, then why not try ECT? It is not the nightmare that it was in the past, and it doesn't sound like you have much to lose since you're considering ending life. And all you will be doing is adding more grief to the rest of your family who are already reeling from your family deaths. Get help for yourself. There can be so much more for you, but you probably have forgotten what happiness feels like. You deserve it. View Thread
It can be hard to make friends. One of the best ways is to either meet people at work, during volunteer work which can be just a few hours a week or going to social activities repeatedly.
But what strikes me the most is your desire to die. You sound clinically depressed and I wonder if you are taking any anti-depressants. If you really feel like ending it all, please promise me that you will go to the Emergency Room. A chemical imbalance can skew your perceptions and judgments. Your child greatly needs you. Please get help so that your little one will have a full mother who can care for them. You take care.View Thread
Well, you certainly are getting a lot of exercise. Is it too much? There is a balance between too little and too much exercise to treat the pain of fibromyalgia. It sounds like you have tried a lot of meds. Be very proud of yourself for having tried so many medications. That's not easy. Imagine that you tried Savella for your fibro which has "cured" many people's fibro from the reviews. I couldn't stand the nausea from it to treat my fibro--so too bad. But Trazodone has helped me quite a bit with my fibro.
Several questions to ask you. 1) When the anti-depressant stopped working, did you try increasing it? I was on an anti-depressant that stopped working and I was in severe depression. Just increasing it completely took away my depression a month later. 2) Have you tried MAO Inhibitors? They are very seldom prescribed because you have to avoid certain foods, but I never felt so good as when I took that. A bit too good in fact. 3) Have you been to a good psychiatrist who can give a mixture of medications to you? Sometimes just adding something like Abilify can make all the difference. 4) Have you tried ECT? It's not terrible like it was in the far past. Wouldn't it be worth a try rather than you struggling so much?
I feel really bad for you, but there is hope for you if you haven't tried everything. And there are always new meds coming out because so very many people suffer from depression. There could be a really great life ahead for you. I hope that you won't give up. Let me know if any of my suggestions are new to you. Wish you the best.View Thread
You don't say what meds you are taking or how much overweight you are. What size are you? It sure sounds like you are doing everything right and must be healthy as a horse. Sure you can talk to your doctor about it.View Thread
Can you get some counseling to help you through a very difficult time? Also it sounds like clinical depression is a genetic trait that runs in your family. Have you tried MAO Inhibitors such as Nardil? If so, then why not try ECT? It is not the nightmare that it was in the past, and it doesn't sound like you have much to lose since you're considering ending life. And all you will be doing is adding more grief to the rest of your family who are already reeling from your family deaths. Get help for yourself. You deserve it.View Thread
If your meds didn't help you, then they need to be increased, or you need to try meds in a different class. Have you really tried meds in all the major classes? You sound like you have clinical depression since you know that reality is good. I had a wonderful life in every way and knew it, but was severely depressed. Finding the right medication fixed everything. Then I got severely depressed due to very bad life circumstances. It was so situational that I didn't think anything could help me. But just raising the anti-depressant completely took away my depression. Your life and happiness is in your hands. Don't give up.View Thread
I don't know why you stay with a man who is no doubt harming the children with his anger and mood swings. If he won't seek help, then you have many years in agony, but more so for the hchildren. If your children don't even want to come home, why don't you leave him and let your children feel some peace. Even if you have to live in a "shoe box", it would be better.View Thread