Unfortunately someone who already knows that her world is beautiful, is not likely to need a new perspective on the dark side. That was helpful to me when I was resentful about being in chronic pain and not being able to do much of anything. But when I had severe suicidal depression, I knew that everything in my life was wonderful and that I was a terrific person. It was definitely a chemical imbalance for me. I felt that no torture could be any worse than the way that I felt. So seeing someone terminally ill would have only struck me as an attractive option.View Thread
There you've got it when you said, "And he makes her feel guilty for hanging out with me at night when he's home." Does that strike you as strange? Is so, it's probably because you've never been married. A spouse looks forward to having time with their spouse when they are home, already in competition with their children. He may have asked you to live with them, but the reality has turned out differently. I know that you never meant any harm by living with them. For your own sake, as well as theirs, I would move out. And as for your friend, with child support, she probably could raise her kids on her own. But give this couple a chance to work things out by themselves. If nothing else than for the sake of the children to have both parents at home with them. Good luck to you.View Thread
I know exactly what you mean. I was suicidal for several years after being depressed since childhood. I knew that everything in my life was perfect--my job, my friends, where I lived. I knew that I was attractive, bright, had plenty of money, you name it. It was clearly a chemical imbalance that responded to anti-depressants. How many anti-depressants have you tried? Have you given each one about a month to feel the full effects? Have you tried an MAO Inhibitor such as Nardil or Parnate? That is a more unusual one due to the diet, but it made me the happiest I ever been. Just had to stop it due to a bad side effect. Then light treatment helped my depression when nothing else on the market at the time could help me. And what about ECT? It's not the horror from the past. Let me know the answers to my questions. You deserve to have a happy life and can have it. Just don't give up until you have really tried everything that you can. It will be worth it.View Thread
Sorry to hear about your situation. Women do have problems putting everyone before themselves. You're not alone with this one. You do need to take care of yourself or you will be of no help to anyone, plus a big drain on your husband. He has stood by you against his family. That says a lot for him, don't you think? You should celebrate his devotion to you rather than "not being the same since". Your husband has no control over what his mother says, but he took control by choosing you. You don't say what health problems you have, unless it is your depression. That means that you need to set boundaries on what you do.
Men typically don't express feelings very easily as women do. But he has certainly made his feelings known about his job. What more do you want from him? His feelings are very painful and he has told you about them. Why do you say that him talking about quitting his job means financial trouble rubs off on you? Is that because you want to quit your job? Then you can tell him that, since he has said pretty much the same thing to you. Now are you sharing your feelings with him?
It sounds like you got burned out helping your brother way too much. But that is now done with and you feel good about doing it. You don't say why your brother can't work or drive or help his parents who he is living with. That would help things.
I think that you need to set boundaries on your obligations to your parents and brother. Perhaps you could go visit them just one day a week. Did you say it was an hour drive? Then take 4 to 5 hours out of your day to visit them 2 or 3 hours. Or make it once every 2 weeks or whatever you are comfortable with. Unless you have no feeling for your parents, they aren't going to live forever and you will probably feel terrible if you don't go to visit them at all. But that should still give you time for yourself.
Let me know where I am wrong on your situation, because I may be way off. Really let me know. I do feel for you and you do have options to help yourself. You take care. SaraView Thread
Prednisone is for allergic reactions and skin conditions among other things. A maximum dose of 80 mg is indicated, so I think that you are asking for trouble by going to another doctor and accusing his GP of screwing up. But yes, Prednisone can cause psychiatric side effects including psychoses and behavioral changes. How long these effects should last, I don't know. You should inform the doctor about exactly how bad your father is so that the doctor can make a better diagnosis. But when he tells you that he will kill you, you need to get him to a hospital for your safety and his safety. Don't be lax about it. It could be fatal.View Thread
I don't know that anyone knows for sure, unless they have been dead.
BUT, the bigger question, is why are you thinking of suicide? Is your life so bad or is it because of pain? What is your pain from? Let me know. I have thoughts on it having been very suicidal in my life.View Thread
Can you get some counseling to help you through a very difficult time with the deaths in your family? Also it sounds like clinical depression is a genetic trait that runs in your family. Have you tried MAO Inhibitors such as Nardil? That is a more unusual one which I felt the best that I ever felt on that one. If have tried it also, then why not try ECT? It is not the nightmare that it was in the past, and it doesn't sound like you have much to lose since you're considering ending life. And all you will be doing is adding more grief to the rest of your family who are already reeling from your family deaths. Get help for yourself. There can be so much more for you, but you probably have forgotten what happiness feels like. You deserve it. View Thread
It can be hard to make friends. One of the best ways is to either meet people at work, during volunteer work which can be just a few hours a week or going to social activities repeatedly.
But what strikes me the most is your desire to die. You sound clinically depressed and I wonder if you are taking any anti-depressants. If you really feel like ending it all, please promise me that you will go to the Emergency Room. A chemical imbalance can skew your perceptions and judgments. Your child greatly needs you. Please get help so that your little one will have a full mother who can care for them. You take care.View Thread