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How I wish I could smell the roses and appreciate their fragrance, not rue their...
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How I wish I could smell the roses and appreciate their fragrance, not rue their impending death.
How I wish I could look at my children and appreciate their beauty, not mourn their heartbreak to come.
How I wish I could touch someone's life with meaning, not be frightened that I will be scarring them.
How I wish I could listen to beautiful music & enjoy it, not become emotionally torn by the sadness of the melody.
How I wish for the feeling of normality & balance, not the utter inner chaos and turmoil.View Thread
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How I wish I could look at my children and appreciate their beauty, not mourn their heartbreak to come.
How I wish I could touch someone's life with meaning, not be frightened that I will be scarring them.
How I wish I could listen to beautiful music & enjoy it, not become emotionally torn by the sadness of the melody.
How I wish for the feeling of normality & balance, not the utter inner chaos and turmoil.View Thread
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ME
When I am me, I cannot seen, Just what the world abounds. When I am me, I cannot be That...
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When I am me, I cannot seen,
Just what the world abounds.
When I am me, I cannot be
That someone that astounds.
When I am me, the world is black,
So pointless & for naught.
When I am me, who hits the sack,
I lose my train of thought.
When I am me, I feel a bit
Like someone in a dream.
When I am me, I feel a tit
When I let out a scream.
When I am me, I know I fail
At everything I try.
When I am me, I read the tale,
But then begin to cry.
In the end the me that's me,
Is somewhat of a fool.
The me that's me you see,
Has broken every rule.View Thread
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Just what the world abounds.
When I am me, I cannot be
That someone that astounds.
When I am me, the world is black,
So pointless & for naught.
When I am me, who hits the sack,
I lose my train of thought.
When I am me, I feel a bit
Like someone in a dream.
When I am me, I feel a tit
When I let out a scream.
When I am me, I know I fail
At everything I try.
When I am me, I read the tale,
But then begin to cry.
In the end the me that's me,
Is somewhat of a fool.
The me that's me you see,
Has broken every rule.View Thread
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too much....far too much
I hurt so bad right now. I can't bare to live My heart pounds hard inside my chest It...
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I hurt so bad right now.
I can't bare to live
My heart pounds hard inside my chest
It feels about to give.
As panic rushes through my veins
I try to catch my breath.
Is this the way it's going to go?
Is this my impending death?
I look inside and all I see
Is an empty soulless shell
This is why my end must come
Will I be condemned to hell?View Thread
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I can't bare to live
My heart pounds hard inside my chest
It feels about to give.
As panic rushes through my veins
I try to catch my breath.
Is this the way it's going to go?
Is this my impending death?
I look inside and all I see
Is an empty soulless shell
This is why my end must come
Will I be condemned to hell?View Thread
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tired.....can't anymore
Have you ever been so tired that you are not even sure if what you are seeing is real?...
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Have you ever been so tired that you are not even sure if what you are seeing is real? Have you ever been so exhausted that you get nauseas from being off balance.
Have you ever been so bone weary that the slightest touch of a hand hurts. Have you ever been so bushed, that even blinking is a mission.
Have you ever been so drained, that you wish for oblivion. I have been that tired.
I am not a very nice person, I have done some awful things, my dementors are my own fault.View Thread
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Have you ever been so bone weary that the slightest touch of a hand hurts. Have you ever been so bushed, that even blinking is a mission.
Have you ever been so drained, that you wish for oblivion. I have been that tired.
I am not a very nice person, I have done some awful things, my dementors are my own fault.View Thread
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help
Have you ever been so tired that you are not even sure if what you are seeing is real?...
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Have you ever been so tired that you are not even sure if what you are seeing is real? Have you ever been so exhausted that you get nauseas from being off balance.
Have you ever been so bone weary that the slightest touch of a hand hurts. Have you ever been so bushed, that even blinking is a mission.
Have you ever been so drained, that you wish for oblivion. I have been that tired.
I am not a very nice person, I have done some awful things, my dementors are my own fault.View Thread
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Have you ever been so bone weary that the slightest touch of a hand hurts. Have you ever been so bushed, that even blinking is a mission.
Have you ever been so drained, that you wish for oblivion. I have been that tired.
I am not a very nice person, I have done some awful things, my dementors are my own fault.View Thread
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am on meds, but they don't seem to be working???i am slowly going mad...................
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am on meds, but they don't seem to be working???i am slowly going mad...................View Thread
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pain, hurting
Have you ever felt so sad, that the thought of going on makes your cheeks wet? Have you...
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Have you ever felt so sad, that the thought of going on makes your cheeks wet?
Have you ever felt so disheartened, that even the thought of getting up is too much?
Have you ever felt so depressed, that the thought of dying is a satisfying one?
Have you ever felt so low, that you want to blow your brains out?
Have you ever felt so down, that you can't face yourself?
Have you ever felt so dejected, that Van Staaden's River Bridge seem like the only option?
Have you ever felt so miserable, that the pain from the blade makes the feelings real?
Have you ever felt so despondent, that you want to implode?
I have.View Thread
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Have you ever felt so disheartened, that even the thought of getting up is too much?
Have you ever felt so depressed, that the thought of dying is a satisfying one?
Have you ever felt so low, that you want to blow your brains out?
Have you ever felt so down, that you can't face yourself?
Have you ever felt so dejected, that Van Staaden's River Bridge seem like the only option?
Have you ever felt so miserable, that the pain from the blade makes the feelings real?
Have you ever felt so despondent, that you want to implode?
I have.View Thread
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I JUST CAN'T ANYMORE
just can't cope anymore. there is no hope. i've been on meda for 6 years. nothing is...
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just can't cope anymore. there is no hope. i've been on meda for 6 years. nothing is working...i can't fight this losing battle. it's too hard. why can no one help me? i'm so tired..so extremely tired.i just can't anymore.View Thread
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ENOUGH?
This week has been so depressingly, difficult. My lows have been lower. My thoughts have...
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This week has been so depressingly, difficult. My lows have been lower. My thoughts have been dark. I have been stuck in an evil place. I am obviously beyond help. I have no right to waste your time. I will just try to persevere for as long as i can and then let things take their course, i'm getting too tired to fight and i'm not going to consider being institutionalized. Thank you for everything you have done for me, i hope i don't seem ungrateful, that is not my intention at allView Thread
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uselessness
The depth of darkness is endless, there is no hope. Why I even began to consider it, is...
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The depth of darkness is endless, there is no hope.
Why I even began to consider it, is ludicrous.
Once again setting myself up for more hurt & disappointment.
I want to go away, I need to be numb, feeling is just too hard.
The battle within threatens to spill.
My mind is reeling, I want it to stop…why won't it stop.?
I never should have wasted your time, I could never make it up to you.
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Why I even began to consider it, is ludicrous.
Once again setting myself up for more hurt & disappointment.
I want to go away, I need to be numb, feeling is just too hard.
The battle within threatens to spill.
My mind is reeling, I want it to stop…why won't it stop.?
I never should have wasted your time, I could never make it up to you.
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