
Reply: SOOO TIRED!!!!!
Helpmeplz, why should I not give up? I am dead already. I have no desires. All the...
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Helpmeplz, why should I not give up? I am dead already. I have no desires. All the things that I use to like to do are gone. No sewing, cooking, gardening, reading, cross word puzzles and being with people. My memory is gone, yesterday is no longer there. Most of my kids childhood is gone shoot my childhood is gone. I had ECT so 2003 to2005 are gone. I'm stupid. I can't figure out the simplest things at work or anywhere else. Why would I want to keep living. I sleep all the time or not. Everyone around me are smarter then me. I just feel worthless, no good, ugly and all that good stuff or you could say bad stuff. I feel hollow. I'm really depressed right now. I think I'm gonna go hide somewhere so noone wakes me up in the morning.View Thread
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Reply: SOOO TIRED!!!!!
Well today was an eventful day. Went to my fam.Dr. then my therapist, then I was...
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Well today was an eventful day. Went to my fam.Dr. then my therapist, then I was meeting my daughter for lunch before I went to another appt. I was in an accident so I never made it to that other appt. I'm ok except for the back of my head to my butt. My car on the other hand. I just totally feel out of it. I'm really dizzy and my head hurts. Don't want to go to bed cause I won't be able to move. They gave me a new drug to take for the pain but it says don't take with 3 of the pills I'm on and if you are having suicidal thoughts. Never mind that shouldn't be a worry.
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SOOO TIRED!!!!!
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TRIGGER<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<I am so tired. All the grief and stress in my life is to overwhelming. I'm shaking so bad I can't write or eat and so on..... I ran out of my levothryoxine 2 weeks ago and I never called the dr. I see her tomorrow. She'll probably be upset about it but I don't care any more. I take 10 meds. and I don't want to take them anymore. Maybe I'll get better if I stop them. Better yet I would rather take them all and go to sleep forever! That would be the best thing.View Thread
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I'm tired of this sadness
Well I'm back from my trip didn't die on the plane. Don't know if that was good or bad....
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Well I'm back from my trip didn't die on the plane. Don't know if that was good or bad. I called my Dad on Sunday returning his call and he told me my grandmother died. They had the service on Saturday and she was cremated. I didn't get to say good bye. Didn't get to see her after she had her stroke cause no body would tell me where she was. First it was my dog then my grandmother then my high school friends mother died. I'm just going crazy. Can't cry. Don't want to go back to work. Stop by today and just got a face full of crap.
I have to go to bed my drugs are working. Maybe I can sleep off some of this sadness and tomorrow may look better. Doubt it.View Thread
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Reply: jaws86
I just replied and it disappered. Don't go away cause I know there are a bunch of us...
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I just replied and it disappered.
Don't go away cause I know there are a bunch of us who want to help you. You may not know me but I care. I might not be able to help you cause everything I say is stupid. I know exactly how you feel cause I want to do the same as you. I have'n seen my pdoc is the end of Sept. and I don't have an appointment till Nov. 20th. What am I suppose to do. I'm sorry just wanted you to know that we care.(HUGS)View Thread
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Don't go away cause I know there are a bunch of us who want to help you. You may not know me but I care. I might not be able to help you cause everything I say is stupid. I know exactly how you feel cause I want to do the same as you. I have'n seen my pdoc is the end of Sept. and I don't have an appointment till Nov. 20th. What am I suppose to do. I'm sorry just wanted you to know that we care.(HUGS)View Thread
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I'm scared
Please everyone pray for me. I'm getting on an airplane in the morning and flying...
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Please everyone pray for me. I'm getting on an airplane in the morning and flying across the US. I am so scared of flying. I don't want to have a panic attack or freak out where they have to tie me down. I know it probably won't happen but I can work myself up pretty good.View Thread
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Reply: Sorry
I'm sorry you are having such a hard time and you are not interfering or inappropriate....
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I'm sorry you are having such a hard time and you are not interfering or inappropriate. Sometime when you're depressed you can't take on this. You can't be a hundred percent. Shot I'm not even close to 50 percent. I want to die too cause I tired of people not caring and taking so many meds. I'm sorry about your daughter too. When I was 8 till I was 18 I was sexually abused. My mother had no idea what so ever. I blame myself cause I didn't make it stop. He would tell me if I told anyone I would get hurt so I believed him. I don't know how my mother didn't know. My other brothers knew. I'm sorry we didn't have group this week and I really needed to go.I don't know what to say to help you. Do you go to therapy? May be that might help. I missed therapy yesterday too. I was suppose to get on an airplane Tuesday but the hurricane messed that up. I get to go tomorrow and noe I have to tell my boss I won't be able to work on Sun. orMon. I'm scared of authorative figures. So that goes for about eveybody in my life. I'm stupid, ugly, fat, I can't figure things out on my own I alwasy have to have somebody show me. I'm sorry for going off there I'm suppose to be helping you. Write me back if anything I said helped. If not that's ok I not worth it anyway.View Thread
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Reply: is it me or him
I'm sorry iI don't know what to tell ya cause my husband traveled all the time. Now he...
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I'm sorry iI don't know what to tell ya cause my husband traveled all the time. Now he is here more then not and he doesn't support me.
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Reply: Not doin good...
Dear lissmeanstrouble I'm sorry you are having so many problems. You need to find a...
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Dear lissmeanstrouble
I'm sorry you are having so many problems. You need to find a pdoc that you will like and will help you. Don't stop your meds before you see someone. I suffer from server depression, panic attacks and suicidal ideation. I've been on many meds for years now. I keep trying to stop taking them but it makes me real sick. Do you have a therapist? Someone neutral is really good. I have a pdoc (who is on maternity leave so I don't have a doc for awhile) and a therapist. But things can suck with the help. I don't know what to say about the step daughter. I have three daughters but they were pretty good all their life. Right now I wish I had a friend someone I could finally confide in. But that will never happen.
I know about the bad thoughts. I've been having some real bad. I have a plan and everything but I don't have a day yet. I hope in some way I've given you some thoughts on getting help. Maybe somebody who isn't screwed up as me can help you better. I'm sorry if I scared you or gave you any wrong ideas just take care of yourself and keep reaching out here.View Thread
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I'm sorry you are having so many problems. You need to find a pdoc that you will like and will help you. Don't stop your meds before you see someone. I suffer from server depression, panic attacks and suicidal ideation. I've been on many meds for years now. I keep trying to stop taking them but it makes me real sick. Do you have a therapist? Someone neutral is really good. I have a pdoc (who is on maternity leave so I don't have a doc for awhile) and a therapist. But things can suck with the help. I don't know what to say about the step daughter. I have three daughters but they were pretty good all their life. Right now I wish I had a friend someone I could finally confide in. But that will never happen.
I know about the bad thoughts. I've been having some real bad. I have a plan and everything but I don't have a day yet. I hope in some way I've given you some thoughts on getting help. Maybe somebody who isn't screwed up as me can help you better. I'm sorry if I scared you or gave you any wrong ideas just take care of yourself and keep reaching out here.View Thread
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Stressed
I'm so totally stessed put at work. We (there was only 2 of us) couldn't get anythong...
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I'm so totally stessed put at work. We (there was only 2 of us) couldn't get anythong done cause there were people in the store non stopped all the way up to 9pm. I am so tired and depressed and having tterrible chest pain. It's not my heart says my heart doc. I just want to know what is wrong. I don't want to work shoot I don't want to live. If I could just go to sleep and know one bother me until I decide to wake up which could be forever for all i care. That's it need to go to bed it's 11:20pm.View Thread
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