Thank you for your response, it's great to know that you were able to get away for a few days...I hope your vacation was a fun and relaxing time for you and your husband. Also, it's wonderful to learn that you had been feeling calmer than you were at the time of your initial post -- that's an answer to prayer!
It was good to learn a little about your children -- how wonderful that you are able to enjoy great relationships with your adult sons. It sounds like they are both very successful and you've raised them well.
I'm glad you've planned to seek God's leading and guidance for these tough emotions you've been facing, I pray that He leads you to where you need to be, and that you'll get the right care and support. If you find yourself feeling hopeless and thinking of suicide again, you might find it helpful to reach out and talk to someone over the phone. The USA Suicide hotline is available 24/7 at 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433). Focus on the Family has licensed counselors that can speak with you at no cost, the number is 1-855-771-HELP (4357). They're available weekdays between 6 AM and 8 PM (MT). Hope to hear from you again soon. God bless you!View Thread
I'm so sorry you are going through this, my heart goes out to you right now. Please don't give up hope -- no situation is hopeless! You are NOT a loser -- God has you on this earth for a purpose, and I pray that you will experience His hope and peace today.
You mentioned that you are seeing a therapist, and I was wondering if you had told him or her the extent of your feelings? It sounds like you might be in a place where you may need to consider other help and support that is available to you.
As for your husband, I understand that his treatment has hurt you deeply. As hard as it may be, I encouarge you to try to see him in a more positive light and look for the things that you do like about him. Do your sons live nearby? How is your relationship with them?
Taking your own life is not the answer, and I truly hope that you will be encouraged and find some hope in your life. Please post again and provide an update on how you are doing today. ((Hugs))View Thread