
Reply: Chez1
I agree D, as always she has been helpful, caring and I would like to know as well - how...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
I agree D, as always she has been helpful, caring and I would like to know as well - how you are doing Chez1
.
(((((snoopy dance)))))View Thread
Posted byniteflier
.(((((snoopy dance)))))View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
7 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Chez1 I agree D, as always she has been helpful, caring and I would like to know as well - how...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Niteflier
Hey AK Mommy, perhaps this will be a lucky month for you yes i agree springs eternal ...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Hey AK Mommy, perhaps this will be a lucky month for you
yes i agree springs eternal
would be great
.
Backslid a little bit today, but still hanging. Tomorrow is another day
Hope you have a good night and a good day tomorrow.
Take care.View Thread
Posted byniteflier
yes i agree springs eternal
would be great
. Backslid a little bit today, but still hanging. Tomorrow is another day

Hope you have a good night and a good day tomorrow.
Take care.View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
12 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Niteflier Hey AK Mommy, perhaps this will be a lucky month for you yes i agree springs eternal ...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Made a new realization over the weekend
Hello an 247130, i am sorry you are going through this. can i ask why you feel you may...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Hello an 247130, i am sorry you are going through this. can i ask why you feel you may loose your family and perhaps the
'situation' . please keep in mind you do not have to answer - i will not be offended if you do not. We are only here for you - not to judge, but to help you get through rough times.
sending (((hugs)))View Thread
Posted byniteflier
'situation' . please keep in mind you do not have to answer - i will not be offended if you do not. We are only here for you - not to judge, but to help you get through rough times.
sending (((hugs)))View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
4 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Made a new realization over the weekend Hello an 247130, i am sorry you are going through this. can i ask why you feel you may...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: CBT, Careful could trigger some. First Steps, sti...
Hey D, sounds all too familiar. I am sorry you are feeling this way, but i am glad you...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Hey D, sounds all too familiar. I am sorry you are feeling this way, but i am glad you are recognizing it and are getting 'busy' ...easier said than done I know.....
Hang in there
Sending more ((((hugs)))) your way.
(perhaps i need to get my book out again as well - thank you)View Thread
Posted byniteflier
Hang in there

Sending more ((((hugs)))) your way.
(perhaps i need to get my book out again as well - thank you)View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
8 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:CBT, Careful could trigger some. First Steps, still crawling. Hey D, sounds all too familiar. I am sorry you are feeling this way, but i am glad you...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Niteflier
Thank you AK Mommy, I agree their thinking makes no sense, nor did they make any sense...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Thank you AK Mommy, I agree their thinking makes no sense, nor did they make any sense during my dad's in home hospice care. It is just hard to 'unhear' something, as it is to 'unsee' something.
I believe my dad would want me to remain in contact with them - I did try the first month after with no response - perhaps i should take everyones(family included) advice and keep my distance from them for a while. I don't hate them, but I really don't know how I feel towards them - numb is the closest I can come.
Thank you again. I am on a upswing, if you can call it that. I am glad I got back online - should have done it sooner - everyone here is so kind and caring.
I hope you are doing well.
Sending (((hugs))) your way.View Thread
Posted byniteflier
I believe my dad would want me to remain in contact with them - I did try the first month after with no response - perhaps i should take everyones(family included) advice and keep my distance from them for a while. I don't hate them, but I really don't know how I feel towards them - numb is the closest I can come.
Thank you again. I am on a upswing, if you can call it that. I am glad I got back online - should have done it sooner - everyone here is so kind and caring.
I hope you are doing well.
Sending (((hugs))) your way.View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
12 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Niteflier Thank you AK Mommy, I agree their thinking makes no sense, nor did they make any sense...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Niteflier
Thank you Elizabeth for the kind words. i did not consider it harsh, sometimes it is good...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Thank you Elizabeth for the kind words. i did not consider it harsh, sometimes it is good to get smacked upside the head with reality every once in a while. Thank you for sharing, know that could not have been easy. SM said something similar when i first joined the community. I know what you all are saying, but sometimes the snowglobe is shaken so hard it takes a while to settle down.
Thank you -
take care
Sending (((hugs))) your way.
View Thread
Posted byniteflier
Thank you -
take care
Sending (((hugs))) your way.
View ThreadNiteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
12 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Niteflier Thank you Elizabeth for the kind words. i did not consider it harsh, sometimes it is good...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Niteflier
Hey D, thank you - feeling a bit better. got back on the horse (so to speak) i drew a...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Hey D, thank you - feeling a bit better. got back on the horse (so to speak) i drew a little bit yesterday - first time in a while, but its a start.
i hate you have been on the roller coaster ride......darn entities shaking up our snow globes.....
I am glad you have a nice counselor, that she is focused and hope the connection will be what you both need to get you moving forward - no fun treading.....how often will you be able to meet with her? I use to go once a month and probably should start up again.
I always dread the first encounter with counselors - but was extremely lucky with the first counselor (he was very patient) and extremely helpful (and was surprized i chose to see him over a woman counselor due to my past). Nervous about looking for another. the second one I tried - we just did not click, the third was a disaster.
Thank you again D - i will post a picture when i'm finished. Actually I will attempt to write wylie in hieroglyphics...... a friend drug me out of the house to see the king tut exhibit. have to admit it was amazing and i am glad i went.
Take care.
Sending lots of ((((hugs)))))View Thread
Posted byniteflier
i hate you have been on the roller coaster ride......darn entities shaking up our snow globes.....
I am glad you have a nice counselor, that she is focused and hope the connection will be what you both need to get you moving forward - no fun treading.....how often will you be able to meet with her? I use to go once a month and probably should start up again.
I always dread the first encounter with counselors - but was extremely lucky with the first counselor (he was very patient) and extremely helpful (and was surprized i chose to see him over a woman counselor due to my past). Nervous about looking for another. the second one I tried - we just did not click, the third was a disaster.
Thank you again D - i will post a picture when i'm finished. Actually I will attempt to write wylie in hieroglyphics...... a friend drug me out of the house to see the king tut exhibit. have to admit it was amazing and i am glad i went.
Take care.
Sending lots of ((((hugs)))))View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
12 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Niteflier Hey D, thank you - feeling a bit better. got back on the horse (so to speak) i drew a...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Niteflier
Thank you Chez, i have not been as good to myself as i should have been, but that too has...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Thank you Chez, i have not been as good to myself as i should have been, but that too has calmed down.
how have you been doing?View Thread
Posted byniteflier
how have you been doing?View Thread
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
12 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Niteflier Thank you Chez, i have not been as good to myself as i should have been, but that too has...
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Niteflier
Trigger......................................................................................
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Trigger.................................................................................................................
.....................................................................................
Hello D and everyone who has posted asking about me. You all have so much heart. I am sorry I have not posted in quite a while - no excuse really - just can't get my head on straight. I'm doing ok, somewhat lost. my father's birthday came and went in July. i do appreciate all the support everyone has given me on this subject - it all makes sense, but my mind can not let go of the fact that i had a choice and will never know if the choice i made was for my dad and not myself. even his family confirmed that i gave medication out of selfishness on my part and cut his life shorter than it should have been...you would think i would just be able to accept the desision i made and move on - i should, but some days are worse than others. I heard a quote on the the tv - " When you look long into an abyss the abyss looks into you" Friedrich Nietzche. it seems to fit.
thank you again for asking about me and I am sorry i have not been there for all of you this past month. I have been checking in, just not posting - the connection i feel for all of you I can not even begin to describe.
Sending lots of Love and (((((Hugs))))) to all. Again i am sorry for not posting sooner.
(Chez, i am not going to reread this and will just post - you did teach me that
View Thread
Posted byniteflier
.....................................................................................
Hello D and everyone who has posted asking about me. You all have so much heart. I am sorry I have not posted in quite a while - no excuse really - just can't get my head on straight. I'm doing ok, somewhat lost. my father's birthday came and went in July. i do appreciate all the support everyone has given me on this subject - it all makes sense, but my mind can not let go of the fact that i had a choice and will never know if the choice i made was for my dad and not myself. even his family confirmed that i gave medication out of selfishness on my part and cut his life shorter than it should have been...you would think i would just be able to accept the desision i made and move on - i should, but some days are worse than others. I heard a quote on the the tv - " When you look long into an abyss the abyss looks into you" Friedrich Nietzche. it seems to fit.
thank you again for asking about me and I am sorry i have not been there for all of you this past month. I have been checking in, just not posting - the connection i feel for all of you I can not even begin to describe.
Sending lots of Love and (((((Hugs))))) to all. Again i am sorry for not posting sooner.
(Chez, i am not going to reread this and will just post - you did teach me that
View ThreadNiteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
12 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Niteflier Trigger......................................................................................
Thanks for your Reply!

Reply: Just doesn't make sense - Trigger
Hey Chez, i am glad you are fighting and posting here - thank you. I know you have heard...
Posted by niteflier
Niteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Hey Chez, i am glad you are fighting and posting here - thank you. I know you have heard it many times, but i will say it again
You are NOT usless and pathetic. i know you help me (and many others here) when we go through tough times and hope we can do the same for you. Please hang in there and know we are here for you. 
sending lots of (((((Hugs and Love)))))) your way.
View Thread
Posted byniteflier
You are NOT usless and pathetic. i know you help me (and many others here) when we go through tough times and hope we can do the same for you. Please hang in there and know we are here for you. 
sending lots of (((((Hugs and Love)))))) your way.
View ThreadNiteflier
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love
28 Replies
| ReplyReply
| Watch This DiscussionReport This| Share this:Just doesn't make sense - Trigger Hey Chez, i am glad you are fighting and posting here - thank you. I know you have heard...
Thanks for your Reply!


