Hello all. I've been feeling much better of late, thanks in large part to your support. But frankly, feeling all right is scaring the heck out of me. Not only do I feel that something bad will happen because I'm not miserable, I'm worried that the depression will ramp up again.
OK, I know it will ramp up again at some point, but I'm not sure that I'll be able to handle it when it does. I don't remember feeling this way the last time I came out of an MDE but I find myself looking out for the bad thing and getting very alarmed when my mood slumps a little. And my dreams ... ugg. I'm used to vivid, even disturbing ones but 3 nights in a row, I've dreamed the world is ending. In my nervous state I'm braced for some sort of personal disaster.
I won't say I miss feeling like [rhymes with twit> all of the time because that would be a lie. But it was "normal" and I also wish that if I didn't feel bad, I could enjoy it. I guess I'm just wondering if this is normal? A good sign? A bad one? Depression wearing a fake nose & eyeglasses? Help!View Thread
Hi and welcome. I'm not surprised you're feeling so overwhelmed. Three babies all at once is a lot to do and the circumstances behind why you have to care for them are also stressful. Having struggled with depression on and off for years, I can't think of any way to just "snap out of it." I think you're being way too hard on yourself if you expect to be able to do so.
I'm guessing Child Protective Services are giving you custody? Is there someone in that agency you can talk to about getting support? I understand if you're afraid saying the wrong thing to that agency will mean you don't get custody but I'm guessing there are support groups for people in your situation and having someone else to talk to might help a lot.
Beyond that, how have you dealt with your depression in the past? Did you see a therapist or psychiatrist?
At the very least I hope you'll keep checking in here.View Thread
Thanks for this. I admit my attempt to quit a second time (last year) was scotched by the fact that I was already feeling severely depressed and the withdrawal was just too much. Even though I knew it was withdrawal and I did feel so much better the first time I quit.
Sounds like now that I seem to be out of the latest MDE is the time to do it. (By the way, a pack now averages $7 in my neck of the woods!)View Thread
Hi. That is a huge move and it sounds like you came from my side of the U.S. Travel is stressful. Moving anywhere is stressful. Setting up household in a completely different country adds culture shock to the mix and that's applies even if you don't have a language barrier. Even a person who isn't depressed would feel extremely stressed out and likely suffer from an episode of depression.
These are just some suggestions:
See if there is a community of English speakers (even an informal one) where you are. Just getting out and mingling with people will help. Does your husband work with people whose spouses are in a similar situation?
I know it must be daunting, but don't let the language barrier keep you indoors.
Finally, think about taking language lessons will quickly increase your comfort level and give you something to do.
Again, your husband's job may offer something, there are lessons on line (check YouTube) or best of all, you might find a local tutor, perhaps someone who wants help improving his/her English. I think being able to communicate will make you feel less isolated and uneasy.
Hope this helps.
(And by the way, you can pick a user name. My name isn't really Jeune.) View Thread
I understand. There may be places in your area that offer therapy on a sliding scale. You might also try the DBSA , which offers a peer-to-peer support group that you can dial into.
But I have a stupid question: Does the doctor prescribing your meds not offer talk therapy? I ask because I see a nurse practitioner who does talk therapy and she also writes scripts. I'm guess I'm just wondering if your insurance would cover someone who does both?View Thread
You're welcome for the reply. I know it can be hard but even in a marriage sometimes individuals have to work on their own issues and they can't rely on the other person to help. So yes, everyone has their own hang ups but that doesn't mean one person's problems will or can or should keep the other from making progress and doing what they need to do to get better.