I'm sorry I've been neglecting you guys... I started going to school so it seems like everytime I get a minute to get on the computer it's to do school work.
I went to Indiana to visit family for christmas. BIG mistake, as usual I couldn't get out of there without my stepmom and step sister starting drama, over stupid stuff. I ran out of my effexor a couple weeks ago so now I have nothing to help me with my depression. That really sucks, it's starting to really get bad for me as far as controlling my emotions now. It really sucks. Of course, now is when all this new fighting gets started. Anywho, enough of my rambling I hope all is well with you guys!
I have been feeling much better lately. I haven't had any "moments". My husband has been a lot more supportive. I think that he has ALWAYS been as supportive as he knows how to be. He tries to make me happy he really does. There are just times when I need more support then others. Sometimes I just need him to say something nice to me. But I'm sure that's just a women thing. lol. Well anyway. I finally am able to start school online. My first class starts tomorrow. I hope all is well with everyone.
Omg! That's horrible! I'm so sorry to hear about your awful childhood. It's good that you've managed to come back from that and do so well for yourself.
As far as your questions. I'm by no means a doctor OR a lawyer, but I can't see how that is in any way legal. I would seek help from a lawyer. Even if you don't want to go forward with any legal action. A lawyer could answer some questions I'm sure. Who else knows the law better then them right?
Sorry I've been out of town and busy so I haven't been able to get on much. I thought coming here to Virginia to visit my brother in law would help me but it really hasnt. It makes me alot more self concious. I really feel bad about myself because of all the weight I've gained. They are very active healthy people my brother in law is in the navy and his wife used to be a personal trainer. So I feel so fat and out of place around them. Yesterday we took a bike ride, and I love bike riding, but at my pace. With my wrist I have to go alittle slower because I try to not put to much pressure on my right wrist. Well, they all kept leaving me. My husband every now and then would stay back with me but it made me feel more like crap cuz then I feel like I'm holding him back. Well I was riding by myself back to the house. (My brother in law and sister in law took off cuz he had to go to the bathroom lol, and my husband was riding more) There was a group of like 5 or 6 teenage girls and they were yelling things at me like "fat ass" and "ooh why you sweating so bad your just riding a bike". Just saying mean things to me.And they were all following me yelling that stuff. Then luckily my husband cought up to me and they stopped. I've been so self concious because I've never been this big. I have been trying so hard to lose it but it hasnt come off. After that happened yesterday I don't seem to have a appitite. I feel like if I don't eat I'll lose the weight. I just don't want to eat. Even being hungry. My husband came into the room while I was crying and just says "Why do you let a few little girls get to you." I don't think he understands. It doesn't matter the age of the person, the way they treated me really really hurt. I mean, it's true what those girls said. I am a fat ass and I shouldnt sweat and struggle to ride a bike the way I do. But it's not like I want to be this way. I don't even know how this weight got here. I don't eat really bad, I'm active for the most part. I walk, ride bike, I was working 50 + hours a week when I was in work. I don't know why I got so big. I don't know I just feel like I shouldn't eat. And if I do, I should make myself throw it up. I haven't eatin since yesterday. I just don't want to.View Thread
Yeah, I understand. I used to be under weight when I was young. Until the age of 9 cps stayed on my mom because they were told my mom didn't feed me. ( which was false)being under weight is just as dangerous. But when you're underweight ppl don't look you like you're a gross pig. Some people treat me like I'm just some kinda punching bag. but ever since i was 10 I've struggled with obesity. About a year and a half ago I was about 90 lbs. lighter, for some reason I shot up. Now I have sooo many problems.View Thread
Thank you , that's so true! Unless you've been extremely obese you will never truely know the life difficulties we go thru. Just basic things, everyday stuff like walking up and down stairs, putting socks on getting on and off a low couch. It's so hard. People just assume that obese people are overweight because of bad eating habits. That's not always the case. So many things can cause weight gain regardless of eating habits. I just hate how some people have no descentcy to just look the other way. Why must you talk down to me and make me feel worse then I already do. Like I don't know that I have a weight issue. I try so hard to control my weight by diet and exercise but it doesn't do anything. I wish I could have help. I can't afford to have a surgery, and diets and exercise clearly aren't enough.View Thread