I understand! I do the exact same thing as well. You are most deffinantly not worthless. I dothe same thing alot of the times. knowing that i need a shower or that i need to eat or even just change my clothes. I just cant bring myself to do it. I cant bring myself to get out of bed unless i have to! Dont be mad at yourself. I think everyone with depression does the same thing. I honestly cant tell you before now the last time i have felt the tiniest bit good about myself. But then I did something for me. I am loosing weight. Yesterday when i went to the doctor for something totaly unrelated to weight loss i have lost 30 pounds! Just find something you love to do or have wanted to do and do it. I know that is sooo much easier said than done. It took me 5 years to do this for myself. Just know it does get better and that you are not on your own in how you are feeling.
I wish people knew we wernt lazy or we wernt mad at them bacsue we dont talk. I wish people knew it was a disease or sickness just like the flu you dont get over it in a day. It takes time and medicine. And a good shoulder to lean on they dont have to understand who would want anyone to have depression we just need someone to listen to us or hand us tissues when all we can do is cry.View Thread
Thank you! I am going to talk to my weightloss doctor who is also a GP and let her know what all is going on. I am feeling better. I do need to get more exercise since i am trying to lose weight. It is what i have wanted to do for so long yet my depression and lack of motivation to move unless i have to have hampered that. But i am happy to say when i went to the doctor in june i weighed 271 and yesterday i stepped on the scale at the same doctors office i go to for weight loss and i am 245! was such a big win for me! That helped alot to have been able to do something for myself for once. This was for no one else but me! I will talkto my doctor aboout paxil and effexor. When i first started they gave me the option of celexa, busbar, zoloft and a couple of others i cant remember. Thank you very much for those suggestions!View Thread
No he doesnt. I have talked to him and talked to him about it. My mom and dad has also. They would help me some but money is just hard all the way around. With her going to the doctor cause of bp issues im not goin to ask them. They have taken care of me for 19 years (financially) I cant ask them for any more. But my brother keeps telling me ya ya i am trying no one is hiriring. Which is such a lie. I live in a Oilfeild booming town and he is 22! He could get a job like that if he would actually try! Drives me nuts! But i cant cut back on hours right now. I am out 8 days due to my kidneys being full of stones and i cannot take care of my patients in the pain i am in or on the pain meds the doctors have me on. And bills are just too high. I am hoping the hospital will hire me for the simple fact my dad is changing jobs again because he isnt getting enough hours where he is and we are going to lose insurance. The hospital offers insurance and its 3 on 4 off and then changes 4 on 3 off. which would give me some me time for the same amount of money.View Thread
Sorry it has taken so long to get back to you. Have been dealing with kidney stones (my kidneys are full of them) oh the joys of being a nurse lmao. And yes it is the only one that I have tried. I am going to talk to my doctor that i go to for weightloss about trying another kind. I just go through phases of being ok that can last for months and then here i am back in a ditch.View Thread
Yes i was on Celexa 40mg. I also have issues with anxiety/panic attacks. I stopped using my anti depressants because they made me have no feelings what so ever. And i was still having the panic attacks and depression. I am going to talk to my doctor that i am going to for weight loss about gettin back on another antidepressant. It has really been getting to me because my brother and i live together and he doesnt work and i do and that is all i get to do. and i see him going out and having fun and getting to do whatever he wants at 22 when here i am at 19 working all the time and not giving myself the time to go out. not letting myself calm down for once and go do something i would enjoy because i am worried about the bills and groceries and gas and everything else. So i am stressed daily not to add in the fact that he goes and does as he pleases. This normally wouldnt bother me as much as it is if my depression wasnt also eating me up. so I am goin to have to do something. I can no longer handle it on my own.View Thread
Yeah! I will try that. And I will for sure keep comming back. Lastnight was a roock bottom point for me again and I just needed a place to go to where people knew exactly the things I was going throught. Thank You very much!!View Thread
Most days i make it through ok. But here in the last few weeks its only gotten worse. I dont know what to do. Usually I can put on my happy face and only those clossest to me knows that its fake. But i dont know if i can even do that any more. With work and paying bills buying groceries i just am havin such a hard time pulling myself out enough to see the dim light. I have no social life because i cant bring myself to leave the house or do one single thing just for myself. Im just lost.I dont want to shower i dont want to go to work i dont want to see my friends because i see how happy they are and it feels like i will never get to feel that again. I couldnt tell you the last time i was truely happy. I promise myself the next day im off i am just gunna get in my car and go do something for myself, but thats just a lie. I never do. If i do anything its watching my friends kids so they can spend time with their boyfriends or whatever else they want to do. Im always doing for others because for that little time i actually feel good about something in my life. Can someone please help me.View Thread