Well dear, I believe you are depressed. I have very similar symptoms, and like you medication doesn't seem to work for me. I have tried therapy as well and it didn't do much for me. I had been looking for an online group-therapy and this site is what it lead me to. I feel like as long as you try to put yourself out there on here, maybe you'll get some responses that will help you. I am not sure if you are religious or not, but I'll be praying for you.. if you aren't religious.. just know that I am keeping you in my thoughts. I have also found that sometimes, after fighting with myself and actually making myself look pretty, it makes me feel better. If I get in the habit of looking pretty it gets even better, and if I exercise it is the best. Just a few of my things.
An... I am a depressed high school student as well. There are people all around me yet I feel all alone. Suicide has more than crossed my mind once or twice.. but I haven't.. and I won't. My best friend thought he was alone, that no one cared if he died.. he killed himself one night after a fight between the two of us, and there isn't a minute of my life that I don't miss him. The only reason I am alive today is because I vowed to make him proud of me while he is in heaven, and I know that suicide is not the way to his acceptance. I am going to go out on a limb here and say that it isn't something your father would want of you either. My advice is to a) stop smoking pot.. not only because of the things you say but it also attracts the wrong people to you... b) write letters to your dad, I know it sounds corny and weird, but he will read over your shoulder from heaven... c) try to let people in your life - no matter how scary it is... d) don't die, because someone else will be asking why they shouldn't end their lives, and it'll be your turn to give them an answer.
I don't know about any of you.. but I feel like this will never go away. I feel like I am stuck in this perpetual hole, for lack of a better word. Even when I have everything I could ask for.. great friends, a great boyfriend, parents that try to understand me... even though my mom has trouble. I've tried the one-on-one therapy and the medication. My boyfriend suggested group therapy, and I read about it in my psychology textbook.. so I am really hoping this helps because I cannot find any group-therapies in my area for depression.
I just feel over-the-top overwhelmed right now. School work is pilling on, and work is only getting busier. My boyfriend and I can't seem to stop bickering after our last fight... My best friend is beginning to ditch me for someone else. My boyfriend keeps telling me that lately I haven't been "me". I try to be more like "me" but it's never right. I don't know what me he is asking for... He and I have been dating for about 8 months, a little less. This is the first large depression wave that I haven't been able to fight off since I've been with him, and he doesn't understand. I've tried to explain and he doesn't understand. Does anyone have any tips for how to get him to understand?
No matter how long and hard I try to fight it keeps on coming.. I am sick of it.. it is exhausting.View Thread