at the age of ten I often retreated from the constant fighting n screaming to the basement. I often wanted to die.
I've been in the mental health treatment for 17 yrs, first dx.d as schizoaffective bipolar type n now three yrs ago bpd major depression n anxiety.
I went off all meds for 3 months .... Had a real true suicide attempt end of February. Because t ignored my request for a mon or tues appt Per hospital I've decided to leave therapy. My life apparently isn't that important.
I'm doing ok tho anxiety is still not under control. On meds again but will prob take another 4-6 weeks to kick in.
Sigh I sure get sick of me. I'm sick of peeps who aren't my friends n only use me for professional services my hubby can provide they think for free!, so I'm staying mostly away from all. I did take neighbor up on lunch for past due birthday. Bfd.
I don't think I'm depressed anymore. I don't even know y I write.View Thread
Have you ever thought of therapy? Seeing a phychologist or social worker? Therapy isn't just for someone who has a mental disorder. Lots of people go to therapy to figure things out and also learn new skills to help them with life in general.
I don't know what else to say But know that we do care here.View Thread
Perhaps if you re read this thread you will see that another poster has suggested many things fo ryou to try so that you're distracted?
The library is a really fun place to go and often you can get books on cd or tape and listen endlessly to this if you don't feel you have the concentration to read a book. THey also have magazines, reference books, etc.
It would be hard for me to be away from my husband too. The more you stay in your head thinking this tho is going to be harder than trying to take a baby step to do something different. Just my thoughtsView Thread
yes that is a really good idea this post rohvannyn.
I think getting out of ourselves and responding here is a great idea.
I only hope that I can start to betterly do this stuff. I have had a lot of therapy and so I know I need to concentrate on activation. Activation is key in depression. I've been doing better the last week until today. I did a couple things in the office and then have been spinning my wheels.
reading your suggestions tho help. if nothing else I can take a small step to trying on eof them. I did get out of the house and bought me a starbucks and dropped off mail at the po.
Getting out of my house sometimes to a different environment helps and I had forgotten about that.View Thread
I want to say that first pick the easiest one that you think could be able to change??!!
I personally would pick the challenging of behaviors because you can be talked down and listen to reason ... this might set the footwork for the rest of the behaviors you'd like to get rid of. Just my guess I'm no doc.
Let us know how you do once you decide what you're going to do with your gathered data from these forums here.
yes I've found these forums helpful too. sometimes we're not able to give 100% all of the time and tht is ok. sometimes 40% is all we can give. when that becomes week after week then it becomes the problem. I don't know where you are at with the depression??
has it gone on for a long time? a lot about depression is how we think. see I say to myself, "I hate me" You say to yourself, "I feel like such a failure."
Do you think if you just acted like a kid for a day with your kids that might break something out of you. Just be and have fun with the kids. you may have to work up to a task and then do it and once you do it then you feel like yeah I did that and there is a little bit of satisfaction. and then build on that.
yes I understand the frustration piece I am that most of the time too. its very hard. I hate frustration. I don't have a good thing to say ab out that but if you get up and do something and keep putting one foot in front of the other you will feel better eventually.
Yes I am depressed too. I think when we're so sad it just is hard to get better tho I've seen times of clarity. i'm wanting to sabatoge myself and go off the Prozac and see if I can just be free of all of they drugs and go off the invega shot too!
I don't need any of it. Not because you think I really do need it because I don't have any of this crap!
I think about running far away and hiding out from everyone and or just stopping my life. There is no one to talk to that I can be honest with about it and therein lies the problem..View Thread