I am usually known as a very outgoing person. Very lovable, very happy, life of the party....that is until recently.
For the last few months I have been battling depression alone. I always felt like I could get better if I just tried hard enough. Obviously this has not been successful. I do journal & write. I also try to use my boyfriend as part of an outlet as well.
I am currently trying to build up various outlets for support in addition to therapy or calling a crisis hotline. I want people who can give honest opions or views even if it's just asking questions to help probe me to get to the right answer. Unfortunately I don't get this on the hotlines.
My depression has also been accompanied by drinking almost everyday. I've become very angry and hard to be around. Drinking basically relaxes me but if something says or does something that I don't like, I explode. I don't like this person that I have become. I just want to be happy again.View Thread
Chez1, Thank you so much for your response and sharing your story with me. I'm glad that you mentioned family and friends. I tried to give an overview of what's going on without being specific as to what is causing my depression or ocassional suicidal thoughts. I actually don't want to share that with people other than Dr's, psychologists, etc and my family actually became upset with me. My Mom said that she is angry with me that I can't share with her but wasn't really understanding to the fact that I'm seeking professional treatment and just don't feel comfortable in speaking with my family about my deepest, darkest secrets. Any suggestions?View Thread
This is my first time as well. I actually had an extremely rough day yesterday, where I was just super sad and felt alone and when my boyfriend wanted to hangout with his friends for a while and I exploded with anger over something entirely petty. That only made my depression worst because he was disappointed in me so I've spent all day just trying to prove to him that I can get better. I'm pretty sure our relationship is over even though I really don't want it to be. He was the only person I ever reached out to with my problems and I feel like he was over burdened. I needed this online support group months ago. Most of my depression is relationship related and scared of being alone.
Is there a general situation in your life that seems to bring you down? Like school, work, friends, sexuality, etc?View Thread
I hope things are a little bit better for you today. I've also been very angry and depressed and my mood tends to come from situations with my boyfriend. Recently, I have been completely night and day instantly. It can be something very subtle and I will blow up. With my last explosion, I dumped my boyfrriend, and then cried all night because I realized how important he is in my life. Right now, I'm waiting on him to decide if we can rekindle. It hurts though, it hurts me to know that I am hurting him. Some things that I have done to help me so far is setting up this acct for online support group. I have made a list of things to do when I get angry or upset to avoid it affecting others. I've also scheduled meetings with therapists over the phone and in person. I realize that my anger is unhealthy not only for me, but for those around me as well. If your girlfriend means as much to you as you express here, helping yourself is what will keep you with her. If you don't channel your anger you do run the risk of losing the one you love, and I am only speaking from experience. Good Luck to you, let me know how it goes!View Thread
Let me first start off by saying you are an amazing person for trying to seek help for yourself to continue to help your boyfriend.
I am currently battling depression and my boyfriend has dealt with many mood swings. I am easily angered or annoyed, my mood is completely night & day in the blink of an eye. So I understand how his mood can affect you.
One of my greatest fears is that my boyfriend will give up on me. I don't want you to feel like you must be there. Not every one is capable of being strong for two people. It is definitely hard. Some things that I would suggest would be to talk to him when he's in a good mood and thinking rationally. Some things that you can ask him would be what he would want you to do in situations where he is not so pleasant. That way you are giving him what he asks....some ideas would be talking him through it (like you do now), staying calm if he's upset, maybe watching a movie, giving him some space, or any other calming/relaxing techniques that you all have established. Of course if things ever get abusive or violent, never stay. And if you feel like he may harm himself, dial 911. Good luck to you and your boyfriend, once again you're doing a great thing.View Thread
I 100% feel your pain. I have been battling with depression on and off since I was 15 or 16, I am now 26 yrs old. I also do not share these thoughts/feelings with my Mom or sisters because I feel like they would be devastated. I really do want to get better and I can tell that you do too, otherwise neither one of us would be here. I would love to continue to chat and speak with you. It's a relief to have someone be there for you. I honestly have never seeked help before because I was too embarrassed, so I decided to try an online support group to remain discreet. Let me know how you're feeling today!View Thread
No worries, stay calm. Take a deep breath. When being with the child becomes overwhelming simply take a step back. Make sure the baby is in a safe place where he can not harm himself (crib or playpen) and take a minute to yourself. If he/she is throwing a tantrum, close the door. Maybe you can step into a bathroom and close that door as well to minimize the sound. Once you've had a chance to pull yourself together return back to the child. Make sure you're not leaving the baby for too long and of course you don't want to leave the baby in the home alone. Good Luck!View Thread