Sounds as though you are really having too much on your plate at this time. I understand about the job fear, I went through that about 16 years ago. The company I worked for filed bankruptcy and rumors were flying as to what was going to happen to our jobs. I lived in fear of losing my job of 16 years. When it all ended, I was let go along with alot of other employees. I had a nervous breakdown, attempted suicide and just totally lost it. I ended up in a great hospital with a great mental illness department. They truly were a good group there. I am still struggling everyday, just to get up and out of bed in the mornings. I allowed a doctor to give me an Electric Shock Treatment, and I have to say, I will never allow that again. It caused me to have some memory loss. The one thing that I do know about this mess of a life I live, is that the only step I can take is to Have Faith In God. And that is what gets me through things. My Faith and My Medidcations are my strength. I do hope you can find a higher power and put your faith in Him. The more I attend church and learn Scripture, the better I feel. I wish you the very best, you and all members of your family. May God surely Bless you and show you there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will find with your job, there are other jobs out there. sorry for rambling. I thought losing my job was the end of my life, and looking back, it was a new beginning for my life.View Thread