All I can tell you is that you are not alone in feeling this way. I am now 37 and have lived with these same thoughts since I was 17. I can remember thinking, how can others cope with life while I am having such a hard time. It was strange how others could simply just go along with life, football, shopping, holidays, while all along I am thinking, can you guys not see what is going to happen? I figured no pill or no psychiatrist could talk me out of such truth of reality. It was actually those who didn't see the sadness of the world were the ones who were delusional. Now I am faced with my 14 yr. old daughter with these same thoughts. It will be a struggle, a journey that she will have to find in her self to feel comfort and peace. I do have to say I am a Christian, I say that in a real sense, not in a religious sense. I do believe, and that honestly is what has kept me going. I totally understand the Twilight Zone feeling. I feel your pain and your agony. YOU are not alone. Keep fighting and I will pray for you. May God be with you and bless you.View Thread