I cry a lot. I hate it. I've been depressed for about 4 years...but up until last year I concealed it well when needed. last year I sort of exploded and I have never been the same since. I lost people in my life more than I meet them, and it's so hard. Waking up is probably the saddest part of my day because I get so angry that I wake up. I literally yell at my self for not dying in my sleep and I can't take it anymore. I lost all joy in life. My ex boyfriend thinks I am psychotic and constantly calls me names because he thinks I am this way only because of how he treated me. It's so hard to explain to him that it is much deeper than he thinks, but it just hurts me more to explain to him how I feel. The worse part of being depressed for me is the fact that other people have it way worse than I do. I feel like girls getting raped has sadly become so common that I feel pathetic for feeling the affects of it and still not trusting people. I cry as I type this, and I just needed to vent...because no matter how many people are in my life I still feel very alone.View Thread
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