Hi I wasn't sure if I should post here or in anxiety it goes hand in hand. I have battled depression for 14 years but today has been particularly bad. My autistic niece whom I am raising out of the blue peed on the carpet and I tried to clean it up but idk if I got the smell completely out and that triggered the helpless alone feeling. I feel so alone. I live with my father and brother but I might as well live alone, and my sisters hate my brother so they don't come over anymore. I feel like collateral damage. This all started when my mom died in 2010. She was my rock. Everything feels so hard. I usually can lose myself in escapism (video games/reading) but not today, the guilt is eating me away too. Things I know I should do I can't seem to. On medication, and it has worked for a long time but now it isn't. I am so tired of feeling like I have the world on my shoulders. I love my niece and she is the best part of my life. I just wish I had more help/freedom to be sick once in a while. I also have some physical ailments that make doing things hard.View Thread
I think I feel the same way. Want to be alone wish I wasn't but wouldn't know how to reach out or would assume no one really cares. Been hurt a lot and its hard to trust people when you've been hurt. I can't really offer any advice at this point in my journey but you're not alone.View Thread
My problem is I can't go there because I have a child who would have no one without me. She is autistic and I am so afraid of my cancer coming back (cancer survivor) and feel so much guilt at the thought of abandoning her but secretly almost wish something would happen to me that is beyond my control, therefore not my fault. I just try to take one day at a time. Its all any of us can do.View Thread
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