Hi. I can relate to your situation and I'm hoping to give you some words of encouragement. I've been battling depression for the past 5 years and its gotten so much worse just in the past few months. I feel like a liability to my family/my husband, and my brother and father have bailed on me. I know what it feels like to have those moments when you question "what the heck am I doing here?" This coupled with my ongoing health issues, my life seems to have come to a screeching hault. My mother died when I was 24 years old, but it seems like yesterday because she was my everything!! It hurts to know I have hobbies and interests that I just can't seem to want or desire to do anymore! I used to love writing, but can't seem to find the strength to even pick up a pen these days! Its like my body and soul have been sucked out and I'm just a walking meat suit! One thing after another has challenged my sanity and my will to keep going! I don't have all the answers, but I believe there is a purpose for me and that's what keeps me breathing. While you have responsiblities and people to care fore, I'm a recent empty-nester. I think what kept me going was that my daughter needed me. Now that she's 21 and is moving out this week, we're both in transition mode. For me, the weight of the world isn't on my shoulders. In fact, I feel like I am a liability to my husband. I am disabled and can't help provide either. Please feel free to talk to me. Sometimes the best medicine is just to have someone to listen to you without judgement or criticism!View Thread
This is the first time in my life that I've felt this close to throwing in the towel on life. I'm a christian and don't believe in suicide, but I am struggling against those thoughts these days. My whole world fell apart 5 years ago and I haven't been able to pick up all the pieces and put them back together again. Its like everything I knew, or thought I knew, about life got twisted and challenged. I stay in my bedroom 23 out of 24 hours a day staring at a TV screen or computer monitor. I have succombed to a phobia as well. I hate to even leave my house! While prayer helps to keep me sane, I could use some MAJOR help!!!View Thread
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