I think your down on yourself in general right now. I went through a very painful break up with the man I thought was the love of my life going on two years ago now. I was devasted and beat myself up for a long time after. It is so painful but it will get better...it will!
Even if you have a disease or made mistakes you can only take responsibility for what you did...not the whole show. Along with having chronic depression I let him make me feel as if I were not good enough. My self esteem really suffered. I am working on that as well as other things like beating depression. I am an alcoholic and addict in recovery and have chronic pain from arthritis. I could hate all these conditions and sometimes do...but when I am calm and sane I realize that I would not have learned to be a better stronger wiser human being if I had not gone through all that I have!!
Hang in there and love yourself!! It will get easier...hugs.View Thread
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