I get so tired of putting on my fake smile and telling people around me that I'm fine. I'm not fine. I'm tired and frustrated and overwhelmed. I'm angry with myself for not having my life together. I feel pathetic. I feel guilty for feeling this way, like I should just be thankful for what I have... and I am thankful...I just used to be optimistic too and I miss that. I feel like I'm just going through the motions...I want my life back, I want a do over.
I'm sorry that you've lost so much, including hope. I agree with rohvannyn though, that suicide will end up affecting others outside of yourself. I wish that I had some additional insight to provide you with. I do hope that life in general does something good and that you take a different path.View Thread