I'm a senior in high school and am going to graduate in June, then going to university in the fall. I've had several long episodes of constant malaise/feeling worthless/being clingy and I think it's coming back. I am a very good student with a 3.8 and AP classes as well as being in 2 top string groups. I don't deal with too much homework because I manage my time well, but I am getting sinus surgery because I've had chronic migraine-like headaches almost every day since around 7th grade. My head doesn't hurt in the morning, but usually in the middle of first period of every day my head starts to hurt and I feel sick. That doesn't go away until I wake up the next day.
Anyways, I also have been with the same person for quite a while and it's making me upset constantly thinking about going to different schools. We'll be an hour away from each other, which is pretty good considering the locations of the other schools I looked at, but we both don't want to move on from each other. I'm a VERY easy crier (and probably always will be) and these days I feel like I'm going to tear up any moment. I also have times where I think about why I'm even here and if going forward with life will be worth it in the end. I've never been diagnosed with anything depression-wise, but it feels like I'm very prone to the kind of thing where you don't hurt yourself on the inside, but it slowly gnaws at you from the inside and leaves a hole that never gets filled.
My family has a long history of depression, bipolar disorder, suicide, abuse, etc. and I don't want to be another one of them.View Thread