The first time I took it I felt drunk! I was all woozy and couldn't walk in a straight line. I only started on 50 mg though, and am up to 75 mg now. I think it's made a huge difference in my depression, however my anxiety is now the issue. My bod just doesn't wanna stay balanced!
Yeah, let's go with sophisticated. I can get behind that haha. Our sanity doesn't come cheap!View Thread
Thank you for your response! So far it's going well I'm really glad I decided to take it. But yeah, there is definitely a stigma around taking medication, especially for depression!
I think I maybe had a bit of an upset stomach when I first started the trazodone, but that's it. Otherwise I'm slowly getting back to 100%. It's hard to accept that I still feel crummy some days, because I want it to be a miracle drug. But I'm glad I took it!
I also have PTSD, or technically the lesser form called adjustment disorder. And mine was just from an exchange abroad to a scary country, no military involved at all. How we react to things is not always predictable. There's nothing shameful about your PTSD.
Also, I'm so sorry about your sexual assault in the military. You've been through a lot, and you're so strong. Take the time to heal and keep doing what you're doing. I'm really glad you're seeing a therapist, taking medication and staying active. It will get better!View Thread
With therapy in general, a lot of it can be patient driven. This usually means though that the client will say what issues they would like to focus on, and the therapist or psych will offer suggestions for how to fix it. Ultimately though, the client must be ready to do the work to heal with guidance and support from their psych. This being said, it seems like your psychiatrist isn't meeting your needs. Is it possible to find a new one?
Have you done other calming techniques such as meditation and yoga? I find yoga very helpful when I'm depressed. It's a gentle way to focus on my breathing and how my body feels, and also get some physical exercise. Worth a shot if you haven't tried already!
Also, a grief counsellor may be more effective for you!View Thread
Firstly, you are not to blame! Depression happens to soooo many people. It's not a sign of weakness, or attention-grabbing. What you're going through sounds so difficult, I'm glad you're working on getting better.
In terms of the anti-depressants, often they won't kick in for 4-6 weeks depending on the drug. The other thing is, sometimes it takes a few dosage changes or changes of the drug itself to get the right medication for you. Because everyone's brains are wired differently, it's not always predictable how well you will or won't respond to a new medication. Keep at it, and if it's not working for you be sure to talk to your doctor for a change.
How long have you been in therapy, and what methods did your counsellor use? Therapy is another thing that you may have to fiddle with before you find something that works. There are so many different kinds from CBT, narrative therapy, feminist therapy, and things like music therapy too.
I'm so sorry you're going through such a rough time. I am currently coming out of a depression and feeling pretty anxious day to day, but my trazodone is slowly kicking in and helping. If you want to talk or have other questions, feel free to reply here!View Thread
I agree with sincereone74, you have a lot of strength!
Continue pushing forward, I am here to help you and to talk. I'm currently dealing with a relapse from my PTSD and it sucks! I'm on a new med and it's up and down but generally more up than down you'll get there.
The hardest thing is realizing that this will pass. Although it does help to push yourself to do things even if you don't enjoy them, napping off a bad day can help to. Suicide is a symptom of depression, sometimes it helps me to look at it that way. It's your brain chemistry being all wonky, and not letting you see how great life can be. Keep talking to your psychiatrist, and wait for the anti depressants to really kick in. It takes a while sometimes but it's so worth it to find the right dosage/mix.
Thanks for the reply! It's reassuring that other people are on multiple anti depressants, I'm relatively new to the whole depression thing as mine is a result of PTSD from a few years ago.
I ended up with trazodone in addition to my 20 mg of cipralex. Still on only 50mg of the trazodone, I'd say it's helped a lot but I wouldn't mind boosting the dose a little to see how that works. I go to my family doctor but am hoping for a referral to a psychiatrist, as they're covered under OHIP where psychologists are not.
Honestly it's really scary for me to start new meds after reading all the potential side effects, but I do anyways. Better to be anxious the night that I take the pill rather than being blind sided by some weird side effect and not knowing where it came from.
Also, sorry your depression is treatment resistant! It's great that you're working with a doc to figure it out though, it speaks to your strength!View Thread
When you're leaving a depressive episode, do you find that it's still hard to enjoy things, or to force yourself to do unpleasant things? For example, it still makes me a little anxious to hang out with my friends, and I haven't had the will to vacuum yet I wanna get on with things! Does anyone else have this, and does it eventually lead back to happiness?View Thread