Exactly - and think about it this way - if you had a headache you'd take an aspirin, wouldn't you? If you had cancer wouldn't you take what they prescribed you? Just because your illness isn't something you can see or touch does not mean that there aren't effective ways to treat it.
Medication DOES work - you just have to be willing to find the right medication and dosage that works.View Thread
I agree! Go see someone new! Luck of the Irish is GOOD luck. There's also the term Black Irish - which doesn't just mean dark complected - it's that dark temperament. I understand - I have it too, but I can't imagine what you've been through.
Speaking of - you need to consider how strong you are to be dealing with all that you have - since childhood - and you're still here - you're still going! Soooo many people could not have withstood everything you've been through, but look at you! You've not only NOT given up - you're sharing your past AND reaching out. That takes a huge amount of, let's say, guts because not only is there this awful stigma about mental illness, you've got the double whammy of the stigma of a man discussing his mental illness.
You, sir, are the hero of your own story and you need to seek out those who recognize that about you. Starting with your therapist. Do not put up with that!!! Firstly - massively unprofessional and secondly - to quote Bon-qui-qui - rude!
Yup - gotta love the family support, huh?! I think that most people get frustrated because they feel like they're supposed to DO something to help us and they just don't get it that we don't always expect that. I mean, geez, we know better than anyone that there's not a lot to be done. It's patience and persistence we need - we just need them to BE there, listen and sympathize as much as they're able. I doubt your dad was angry at you - he's likely angry that he feels helpless. And we know what that's like, no?
It sucks that another downfall is coming, but it's awesome that you KNOW it! That shows you know yourself, you're recognizing the cycle and you're preparing. All that, alone, is tremendous. Think about how long people spend in denial or ignorance or some combination of the two.
I know what you mean about sensing it, too - it's like smelling the rain coming on a sunny day. You don't see it yet, but you know it's on the way. But, if you know that at least you're not going to be caught in a storm without an umbrella, you know?View Thread
The first time I took trazodone I think the dose was just too high or something - I could NOT sleep at all and felt like I wanted to crawl out of my skin! All I could think of was Dave Chappelle's character that's a crack head and he's constantly scratching...
I want a miracle drug every time I try something new. It's been such a rocky road. But hey - maybe we're just more sophisticated - we prefer cocktails to just plain "drugs."View Thread
Exactly! My family is the same way - I was living with my mom and my autistic son. I finally just told her to leave. I was trying so hard to help my son and myself and she refused to help either of us. According to her, I wouldn't be so depressed if I weren't so selfish!
Your kids will understand - if not now, one day. But, if you have anyone else around you who treats you this way - it's not just that they're not helping you - they're making things worse!
Go get some help from people who know and your family can either accept it and work with you or you just have to learn not to take what they think to heart.View Thread
Roll call! I take Prozac, Lamictal, Ativan, Lunesta for sleep, but switching to Trazodone. I've tried just about everything and it worried me a lot when I first started trying multiple meds. But, of everything I've ever taken for anything - the only med I've had bad side effects from is a diabetes drug! The huge listings of side effects are scary, but you have to remember that you are not guaranteed to experience them at all.
Stick with it. Good results are soooo worth it.View Thread
I do! I know exactly how you feel. I've tried nearly every drug out there, done "mindfulness and meditation" classes, drank a lot, reached out to every friend and family member I have - you name it.
I think it's a great idea to try a mood stabilizer - it works in a different way that could be very helpful. I just started Lamictal a few weeks ago. I'm working up to a 200 mg/day dose, but I do think I'm already feeling a little more stable. It SUCKS but you just have to keep trying new meds until you find what works. I've been working on it for... yikes - 20 years now.
I should have had help in childhood, but I come from a family that thought, eh - childhood sucks - buck it up. My first suicide attempt at 13 - just ignored. So, it's vital that we reach out to each other in most cases, I think. It's just so indescribable that you just need someone who's been there and already knows.
How are things today? - or whenever you get back around to it!
The Magnetic Minds group is the very one that won't respond to me! That's the one I suppose I'll just have to show up at. I'll take a look at the other link - hopefully there's something on it I haven't hit up yet!
Thank you so much for taking the time to help me out. You've done a lot more than many people I'm close to have. Sad as that is...
You're so sweet! I live just outside of Asheville, NC. It does seem like there are a lot of resources around here, but I'm just not connecting. I guess I'm going to have to scout out a babysitter somewhere and just show up at a meeting. I HATE the thought of that, but... gotta do whatcha gotta do.View Thread