I'm afraid your post here, on this older discussion, may be missed.
I encourage you to start a new discussion with your questions. To do that, hold your cursor over the orange Post Now button on the upper right and choose 'Discussion' from the drop down menu which appears.
And please be patient for a response; Dr. Schwartz looks in here once or twice a week and answers as many posts as he can.View Thread
Answers are made on the exchange itself so I hope you'll keep coming back to see responses.
But I encourage you to start a new discussion with your intro and questions. To do that, hold your cursor over the orange Post Now button on the upper right and choose Discussion from the drop down menu. View Thread
I'm afraid few will respond to your post here because you didn't post it as a discussion and others may not see it.
You may want to post your own discussion to reintroduce yourself to the community.
You haven't ruined your family by telling your mom you have depression. It's good you have your friends' support and you took a big step to rebuilding that connection with your family. You also may want to talk with your medical provider and look for further resources, support groups in your area, etc.