I almost can relate. I went to my phsy dr today and told her that I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. She said it looks like I am suffering from anxiety more than anything and she has seen me worse. To be honest, I feel worse than I ever have and I spend one week in the hospital because I felt this way then I started ECT treatments. She thinks I am not that bad and what I need is counseling. I have three kids and yes sometimes they are more than I can handle ;( right now is one of those times. I have no idea what to do. She thinks that if I just take a xanax when I feel this way it will help. I really don't think it will. I have an amazing husband, 3 beautiful children, a family, and friends that are just awesome but for me, I am ok with falling asleep and never waking again View Thread
Hello all, its been a while since I have posted but I am really struggling today and I don't know what to do.
I am currently having ECT treatments every Monday, so far I think they are helping for the most part, I was having them 3 times a week but they dropped me down to one since I was seeing some improvement. The last few days I have been feeling worse I have felt in a long time. Even today at treatment they had to give me a dose of ativan(sp?) while I was waiting for me turn.
Now since I have been home for hours my day is just getting worse and worse. I am home alone with my three kids and they are just driving me crazy. Feel like I can't even handle them anymore. To be honest I feel like I can't handle anything anymore.
I really feel like I could check myself in, thats how horrible I am feeling. I am going to talk to my DR tomorrow at my appt about maybe bumping up my ECT to twice a week again. I feel like that maybe would make me feel a little better again. It sucks because its so close to Christmas and I feel so horrible and I can't even enjoy it for my kids. They are all so young and don't deserve to have a mother who is this bad.
I hate myself so much right now I don't know what to do and my husband is so busy at work that he can't be around to help. I have texted him a few times today for his help and sometimes he doesn't even answer. I know he is so busy working to support our family but I am really worried about the way I feel
Well, thanks for listening to me, I really appreciate it!View Thread
Thanks AM, I am a little nervous, not going to lie. But I know this is the right thing for me to do. I need to want to wake up in the morning and live another day and right now I don't want to. I just can't take anymore and I willing to fight so that is why I have choose this option. I have changed meds so much in the last two years I have lost count. And none have ever helped me feel good to where I could function normally. I haven't been praying much either so I feel you there!View Thread
I have mentioned before about my Dr recommending ECT treatments for me. I have had to local docs suggest it. I had an appt at the specialty hospital about and hour and a half away, and the appt went really really well. My husband and I were very impressed with the program and the DR in charge of it. It made it easier to make the decision that I have.
I am still in a really bad way and just can't get out of the deep deep hole and its scary in here. The Dr's believe this treatment will get me out of it and hopefully in remission for a while. I will still have to take one antidepressant to keep up maintenance of it. I will trade the 4 pills I take at the moment for just one in a heart beat.
I am still waiting to here back on the dates. Having a hard time waiting for that, since I have a lot of planning to do to get help for the kids and myself. My husband will do as much as he can but he still needs to keep his job. But luckily we have both sets of parents in the area that can help.
Thanks for listening to me. I just wanted to update you on the decision that I have made. Please pray that these treatments work and I can be the person I am dying to be.
You can clean it tomorrow as long as you promise LOL
I feel the same way right now about therapy. Actually my pdoc said I didn't really need to do therapy until I got my meds figured out because it would be to much. But I decided to start it anyway and now I wish I would have listened to her.
I know this is probably to personal to ask you this but... How many more days until you can check the test??? I am excited for you!!
I am so sick of being sick, I am just sick of everything!! I truly don't think i will ever get better. I am in bed almost 247, I forced myself to get up and go to my daughters last softball game. Everyone was going out to eat and choose to come back home to bed. Its just been an emotional roller coaster that I am ready to get off of but it won't stop to let me off.
This is effecting my kids, I just know it is. They have been acting out and talking back mean things to me. And the oldest is only 7. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I love my husband, he has been so supportive and I am so lucky to have him next to me through this.
Thanks for letting me vent. I am so tired and lost right now I don't know what to do.
Al Mommy, You can complain anytime you need to. You are always there for all of us that are complaining. I hear ya with the money situation and the stay at home mom. I am also a stay at home mom and sometimes it doesn't feel like we contribute does it? I struggle with that a lot, just the other night my 7 year old daughter yelled at me about not having any money and I don't help make the money. Really hurt my feelings but my husband really stood up for me and that made me feel better a least. Anyway, just wanted to say that I understand where your coming from and will always be here to listen to you when you need someone. Hugs, LisView Thread