Thank you for your suggestions. I have had my estrogen adjusted several times in the last two years and its not that. Its defiantly the depression. Wish it were that easy. I have been dealing with the depression for almost 15 years and it sucks!
AL Mommy, thanks for your kind words. I am still struggling most everyday. I did force myself to do things, like have coffee with a friend and take the kids to lunch. Haven't made it to the mall yet but our mall doesn't have a play thing for the kids so thats a bummer. I have been to malls that have that play area and that is so nice.
The dr did add the Wellbutrin just yesterday. So I started it this morning. So now I am on a combo of 4 drugs. Really sucks.
I am headed to a specialty hospital next week for an evaluation for the ECT. I have had to referrals for it so I am going down to talk to them about it. I am so desperate for help. Can't live like this anymore.
Glad the Wellbutrin is working for you and I send you strong baby vibes;)View Thread
Thank you A_Mommy and Chez for responding. This is been such a tough couple weeks and its not getting any better I don't think. My husband thinks I look a little better but I don't feel it. I am in very close contact with my pdoc I am seeing her once a week. Its probably been about 6 weeks total that I have been on the effexor, no maybe like 5. And a week and a half at the highest dose. She has a plan to ad Wellbrutrin to the effexor if I don't see any improvement in the next couple weeks. Chez, thanks for the suggestions for the kids. Maybe I can try and do those this week. I did get up on Friday and took two of the kids to McDonald's to play and have lunch. It was very hard but I did it for them. Then on Saturday I made it to a friends kids birthday party. That was pretty hard. We didn't stay as long as they would have liked but I had to get out of there. How are you do doing? Thank you for being such great friends on here!! Hugs, LisView Thread
Thank you for posting your experience with the ECT. I am in the beginning stages of getting appt and such to ECT. I am a little nervous but I have had two DR's recommend this procedure for me. I am hopeful that it will work.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I feel terrible I haven't been there for other. I am going through such a dark phase right now I don't know what to do.
I lay in bed all day long, only getting up to get the stuff the kids need like breakfast and lunch. I did manage to take two of the kids to McDonald's to play for bit and have lunch. That way very hard for me to do but my daughter cried that I never do anything fun with them and I feel so bad about that.
I just don't know what to do to snap out of this. I have never been this low before and to be honest its scary. My husband has been amazing and if it weren't for him I would be worse. Scared to think of how much worse.
I feel numb and empty. I have a horrible pit in my stomach all the time. I am taking the xanax like the dr gave me and it helps some but not as much as I would like.
How long does it take for the effexor to take it full effect?? I started the max dose last Thursday so its been about a week. I just don't know how much more I can take
I hope everyone is doing well and best wishes to each and everyone of you!
I just got back from the dr and she thinks I just need to give my meds more time to work. She just upped my efferer to the max last week, maybe that is the cause of the deepened depression over the weekend. I don't know. I was totally honest with her. She also gave me more xanax to take as I feel like its getting out of control. So that I was happy about. Still feeling down in the dumps still today but not nearly as bad as the weekend. Maybe because I am here with the kids alone and I know that they need me. I promised I wouldn't do anything to hurt myself and I mean it. I have decided that my kids need me more. Thank you for all your kind words over the last few days.
Thank you so those of you who took the time to respond. Its Monday now and I am in that bad place still, the only difference is that everyone else went back to work and I am here all alone with the kids. I tried to find a sitter to come help but everyone was busy with it being the last min. I am ok, only for the kids. I am pretending I am ok, but inside I feel like I am going to burst I called the DR and they are getting me in tomorrow first thing. Not sure if it will help or not but I am willing to try anything at this point. I spent the whole weekend in bed crying and feeling sick. My husband was a saint! Not sure what I would have done without him. To answer someone's question I did get in the pool and it did help for a few mins. What is wrong with me?? I have never been this bad before and it is really scary. My husband doesn't want to leave me alone but he didn't have a choice for work today. I swore to everyone that I wouldn't hurt myself but it doesn't stop the negative thoughts. Just want them to stop!!!!
Sorry to everyone for not posting to others but I can barely deal with myself right now. I hope to start feeling better soon. One can only hope right!?!?
Hello everyone, I haven't posted much lately, I am having a really bad time right now. The last 3 days especially. I am not sure what is wrong. I am so depressed, I can't get up out of bed when I do I mope around and cry about everything. My husband is trying his best to help me. I don't know what is going on. I have never been like this before. Its like I almost want to just give up. But I know I can't because I have three beautiful children that need me and a husband who would die without me. But I can't take it anymore. I am in such a deep dark hole and I can't get out I didn't get showered until 4:30 today and then we took my kids swimming at my sister in laws. I wasn't going to go but forced myself hoping it would make me feel a little better but it didn't work. I made my husband bring me right back home. So now I sit here all alone with everything to think about. I am going to drive myself crazy!! I need help, any suggestions on what I could do to make the bad feelings and thoughts go away? I am taking all my meds as prescribed and also taking the xanax more than I have in the past because it helps me relax a bit. Sorry for all the negative thoughts and talk I am just so lost and scared ;( LisView Thread
Thank you everyone for responding to my cry for help yesterday. It was a really bad day. Today isn't great but a lot better than yesterday.
I am not really having panic attacks or maybe I am and really don't know. I have xanax for the times that are really bad like yesterday and it helped a lot!! I love having them on hand when I need help.
The meds he has me on currently in the last month are seraquel, lithium, and effexer. I haven't shown any real results yet but she said it needs more time yet. She is bumping up the effexer to the max this week so we will see what that does.
Chez- Thank you for your personal thoughts on the ECT. Its good to hear everything from every angle. I am still in the thinking process of what I want to do.
This is the second psychiatrist to recommend this for me. To answer one of your questions I suffer from severe depression not anxiety. I have a little anxiety that comes with the depression but depression is what I have suffered with since 2000. And I have been on every medication under the sun and every combo of meds that the docs can think of. So now they classify me as treatment resistant.
Thanks again for all your concerns I am just so tired of being so depressed and so tired of my young kids seeing me suffer that I am willing to try anything at this point.
I am having a horrible horrible time right now. I have so many negative thoughts in my head right now and it won't stop. I am crying and feel sick to my stomach.
My poor little boy is being so good with mom freaking out. He is only 2 and has no idea what is going on, my daughters are outside playing with the neighbors.
I hate this!!! I had an appt with my psychiatrist today and she is aware of my feelings, she feels that my meds need a little more time to work. Hasn't been that long for it to take full effect. Which I get, I do, but I hate feeling like this, I have no idea how much more I can take.
She also mentioned today that she would like me to be evaluated for ECT. Which I am open to but nervous to say the least. Has anyone undergone this treatment?
Thanks for listening to my freak out, I am just so lost right now LisView Thread