(((((vegas58)))) major hugs! it hurts soooo much to have such a looming issue and lost so many ppl especially in a short period of time, i'm not surprised at the reaction you are having. i don't have much advice unfortunately, i'm not one to be known to have a good grieving process, i think i'm still going through the process from my mom's death almost 6 years ago.
is there someone close to you that you trust that you can talk to? from the short bit that you've written, it seems like you need someone to hear you. luckily this is a great place to start. i've found it always helps to talk it out with someone else or type it out here, and that many problems can be solved just be hearing yourself and what you have to say.
lots of hugs and warm thoughts. i hear you, and completely understand.
major *hugs* to start with. there is certainly a lot of things going on for you right now. it sounds like you need someone to talk to or just to vent, so you've definitely come to the right place.
I don't know if there's much I can say. I do relate, however, to the disability issues. I also have a disability that usually ppl cannot see, and it is difficult to accept that part of me. but what I've come to realize is that 'disability' is simply a label. there are always going to be things that each individual cannot do or doesn't think they can do. so in some ways, everyone is disabled. just some of us are lucky enough (sarcasm haha) to be classified as disabled b/c of something we have.
all i can say is, the label of disability does not in any way begin to define a person, there is so much more to you, and having a disability is just a workaround that one has to adapt to.
i'm sorry to hear you aren't getting any support from your mom. is there anyone else that you trust that may be of help? if not, you may want to look into seeing a professional. I had tremendous luck with seeing a therapist a few years ago, it's just about finding the right person to fit your personality and situation.
and I know your relationship situation royally sucks, and you are very upset about it now, but that relationship sounded very toxic, and I believe once the initial shock and sadness wears away, you will be better off. you deserve someone who doesn't belittle you and put you down.
yay! i'm glad you ended up going to yoga snappy45yoder! I heard it's great physically and mentally, although the 1 hot yoga class ive been to was INTENSE! lol. I hope you found a good instructor, I heard one's experience depends greatly on the instructor. i hope you find your yoga exciting, that will probably help lessen your negative reaction to doing things, since this turned out to be a positive outcome! so happy for you View Thread
I wanted to say (hopefully to help make you feel better about this b/c it's bugging you), you probably helped make the store clerks and customers day more eventful. working somewhere like that can be tedious, and having situations happen like this just gives them something to vent to themselves about and makes the day less routine. so if anything, you helped them
and I totally agree with lissmeanstrouble, it would have been long forgotten by now. but i also know how it feels in your position and it's really hard not to think that way. and hey, if it makes you feel better to go to other stores in the meantime, sounds like a plan! as long as it's helping you.
it is a great step, you coming onto the community boards and seeking peers to listen and understand. these communities are great for it. i have a similar story to yours, and was forced into therapy around the age of 15/16, and at the time i felt like my world was ending and i wouldn't open up to my therapist (apparently i even told her not to try cuz i wouldn't open up); but looking back, seeing someone professional to talk to was the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. I was lucky in that i was placed with someone that was young, also female, and new to the profession, it seemed to work with my personality and situation.
my point: my first step was joining webmd and the self harm community, and i had such profound support there. that, coupled with the therapy truly helped. and while i am back again, and dealing with new circumstances but similar effects, i know there is a way to be happier and healthier. and while at the moment that's hard for even me to believe, my past history gives me a glimmer of hope and i hope it brings some hope to you as well.
welcome, and know that you won't be judged and will be heard.View Thread
I'm new to this forum, i usually post on the SH forum, but just wanted to reply to your post, simply b/c it enrages me that a doc would say that! they are supposed to be professional and take everything u say seriously, but unfortunately there are those out there that don't do their job properly.
i would suggest to definitely search for a new doc, it may take awhile (i'm in Canada, so our system is a bit different), but it will be well worth it. even if they just do their job and refer u to the appropriate professional.
and unfortunately, people who haven't experienced depression or may not know that they've experienced it seem to think you can simply snap out of it, but that is just ignorance.
keep at it, I will be sending u my thoughts in hope of finding a great doc who will listen and even better understand.