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Lukeperry

Joined: 02/05/2010

My Story:

Hi,

My name is Nancy, I'm 55years old, and I have two grown children. I was so depressed, I wouldn't even take a shower,(for a week). That's when I found this site. Everybody on here was so sweet and they genuinely cared about me. It was great, & perfect timing. I couldn't have gone on much longer, without your help.

I would get on here 1st thing in the morning and one or all of my 5special friends, would ask me about last night, tell me to go eat something and to take a shower, then come back. There was about 5 of us that came on everyday, then, of course new people would come too. Almost everybody I knew then, are gone. It was when WMD changed there format, and it became difficult to find people to ans., or ask questions.

I missed all my friends on here, especially when I found out that I had stage III breast cancer. I had chemo first, to save as much of my breast as possible, so I could have a lumpectomy. I went to the hospital, for my lumpectomy, and they always do a mammogram 1st, to see exactly where the cancer is. While I had that done, a radiologist came in the room to ask me if I'd be shocked, or upset, if I needed a mastectomy? I almost fainted, and I couldn't breath. In 10min.,I went from getting to keep my breast, to having it amputated! Of course I was upset, I couldn't even wrap my brain around it. So they rescheduled my surgery for the next week. All I knew, was I had to get out of that room!

I know that I talk about God a lot, I just hope I don't turn people off, by doing it too much. I lived through a miracle, & feel that I need to share it, because everybody on this board can have them. All of us have a lot of miracle's during our lifetime, but we don't even recognize them.

Stage III is pretty serious, you can die. I came home from the surgeon in shock, ready to lose my mind.(I had never been this scared in my life) I laid down on my bed and begged God to please give me strength for me & to help my family.(they were worse off then me) I also asked him to please be right by my side, because I'd never been so scared, in my whole life. The next day when I woke up, I could feel him in bed with me(kind of attached) and I had no fear! I still have no fear, because I live with a super hero, I talk to him all the time, like he's standing next to me. It's the greatest feeling in the world.

During my chemo, I never threw up, never got ill,(all the other patients were getting ill because our white blood count were so low.) & I had no bone pain. You never would have known I was sick, if it weren't for my bald head. My sister always went with me, and we laughed the whole time we were there. Other people could hear us talking and laughing (because we both have loud mouth's, due to being raised in a family of six), so we kept them laughing too. It was nice knowing that we could make people happy, while they were in awful pain. That was 2 miracle's, then another one was, I woke up happy everyday and still do.

I was fortunate enough to get to move out of the dungeon, (my old apt. the cancer house, I hated it!) into my new beautiful apt. I know God found it for me, because I had no place to move that I could afford. And I had to be out of the dungeon, in two days. My sister & I went to look at one more place, even though I knew I couldn't afford it. When we got here, the girl in the office said,"oh, you came on the perfect day, we have one that's ready to move into today, if you want. Plus, we're having a special, one month free rent." I walked into this apt., and said," This is my house." I didn't mean to say it out loud, like a crazy person. It has window's from the floor to the ceiling in every room, crown molding, and I'm on the 3rd floor. From my balcony, all you see is sky. It's like living in Heaven. Six mo ago, I found out I have a brain tumor. I'll worry about that tomorrow.

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You can talk to me, or a number of people on here. We have all been where you are right now, at some time in our life. Tell me a little bit about what's going on. Why do you feel so bad? Did a certain thing happen, or is it from an ongoing situation? Can you go to a mental health care facility? Try your GP first, he can recommend a doctor, plus he can give you medication, while your waiting.

Try to keep your mind busy, by doing crossword, or jigsaw puzzles. Put a cap on your head(my hair was always dirty when I felt like you, because I never took a shower) put a head set on and go for a walk. These things might sound silly, but all your doing is trying to get through this one day! Make yourself take a shower.

If you make yourself do normal things, and pretend to feel normal, it helps you feel that way. When your mind starts running wild, where you start thinking about one thing and the next thing you know, it's turned into a million gigantic problems. That's called snowballing. The only way to stop that from happening, is to tell yourself STOP thinking right now.

When you start doing that, make a list of things that you need to do. Put them in order of there importance. Is there anything on the list that has to be done today? If not, stop thinking about it, and all the other stuff.(you can take care of tomorrow things, when it's necessary) All you want to do is get through today.

Do stupid stuff that you've been putting off. Clean a room, straighten out a drawer, take a shower, or anything. And every time you do one of these things, pat yourself on the back, and tell yourself "That was GREAT, you did it!" Because, for people like us, it is great! What other people find easy, is sometimes hard for us, so you do deserve a pat on the back!

Mental illness is just as much of a disease, as cancer. People can't see our disease, so they say stupid things, like snap out of it! Do you know of anybody who can snap out of cancer? Sense they can't see it, they don't believe it. They are ignorant people, plus they're scared. They know deep down inside that if it happened to you, it could happen to them.

Write me and tell me how your doing today, Please try some of my tricks, because they really work. You have nothing to lose.

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I hardly know where to start, except to say I know exactly how you feel and I am so sorry. The first thing that comes to my mind, is you are being over medicated. I use to be you, and I couldn't take any anti-depressants. They all made me suicidal. So I only took tranq's, to get me through those day's.

I found this board and met stranger's who really cared about me. They would make me shower, leave my house, and basically made me feel I wasn't alone.(for the 1st time)

I use to write on here all day, then I started feeling stronger and stronger, thanks to them. Then I got breast cancer, had to go through chemo, radiation, and finally a mastectomy.

The only thing that helped me was God. When I 1st heard the word cancer, I thought I'd lose my mind. I also got kind of excited to be finally dying! Without me having to do anything, except, refuse treatment.

That night, when I almost went insane, all the sudden God let me know that he would take care of me. So I said,"please let me have the strength to go through this?" He took care of everything, even the depression. All the sudden, I wasn't alone(not with all those cancer people to help you.) I was happy everyday, because I was special. I had cancer. I was no longer just me. (that sounds really sick)

I don't care, all I know is God made me have no side effects, what so ever. Except me going bald, of course! Him staying by my side, made me fearless, and even want to live.

He's still by my side right now, and it's been 7mo. I'm still deliriously happy. All you have to do is ask God to please let you feel him next to you. And you will never feel alone again, plus he will let you see things, you never saw before.

It's really weird, but when I look at things like the sky, grass, or a bird, your everyday normal things, use to see. Well, when he's by your side, they all look like a fairy tail picture, or something.

All I know is, you have nothing to lose. Ask God to help you, and start taking less of those pills, that obviously aren't working. God bless you.

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