I have three children my daughter will be 3 april 8th my son 6 march 17th and my newest one Henry is 5 months. I have never exprienced aanything like this with my other two children and it came on very slowly at first the drs simply treated me for an anxiety disorder/panic attacks , then it hit deep dark depression were I felt like I was in a hole I couldnt crawl out of I began having horrible thoughts of hurting my children and went straight to the ER they admitted me to behavioral health for a week and I was put on clonopin and a 100mg of zoloft I have been home for a week and see a therapist once a week and follow up with my primary dr as well. The darkest part is gone but I still feel this detachment from life , not life myself , like I am just functioning but not expriencing the joy I used to the Dr assured me it will take some time for the medicine to do its "full" job I have only been on it for a week , my husband is deploying on thursday for 6 months as well but my father in law is coming to help me with the kids , I just feel lost and want my old self back .... this sucks!View Thread