I feel EXACTLY what you're saying in regards to obsession. I don't want to feel the internal pressure of "Should I be eating this?" as frequently as I was. Trying to be less of a stress-minster in general is making me view my weight loss strategy differently. I'm trying to be more carefree about it, and work on positive visualizations (I know, hippie new-agey stuff) and honestly, I at least feel less pressure. I feel more like I'm going back to where I used to be when I was slimmer in my teen years, like getting rid of a lot of my food issues.
I took off another pound from my gain last week, down to 138. My secret goal is to be down to 135 by the end of this month, though I'd be happy just to be back down to 136. I'm not going to kill myself for it, though. I've been doing breathing exercises at the gym and really being able to focus on my form, which makes the time pass so quickly there and give me way better work outs.
I am going to be 130 lbs by the end of this summer, simple as that. Anything I do in the next month or so is extra for what I have planned for this summer. Jogging, hiking, kayaking...I want to be a new person in a few months.
Grandson!!!!! What's her exact due date? You guys must be SO thrilled!! hehehe carrying all those bags of clothes is good resistance training! View Thread
You're exactly right, Tomato. I do appreciate getting to know my body better, a lot.
and really, even when I was being "bad' it's still instinct to eat better and to eat only until I'm hungry now, not just until my plate is cleared. In fact, I'm back down to 137.8 which is still a little gain but nothing like what I feared was happening.
Back to the gym regularly. Back on track with food journaling, paying more attention to my moods and when my tummy is saying "Stop!". Maybe not losing any more weight, but that doesn't mean I have to stop being vigilant and caring about my body. Trying to ignore what people say, and focusing on my victories of size 5 pants (on these Italian thighs, that's a big deal!) and my energy levels.
Tomato, thanks a lot. Helped clear my mind a lot. How goes your progress?View Thread
My vacation mixed with antidepressants makes it seem like I'll always be a little fat. /shrug There will always be a reason, I guess, to eat like a pig. And sometimes I'm OK about it, and sometimes I fail pretty hard. Lately I've been failing pretty hard.
I keep trying to make the best choices, but I keep making thoughtless decisions and then regretting it. I don't think I'll ever take this weight off. With all of my pretty consistent effort 'til now, I've only managed to lose 7 lbs. in four months. Yeah, I look pretty different, but I'm still pretty disheartened.
I honestly don't even care anymore. I keep being told by people in my life that I'll look "gross" if I get slimmer, and my family is just blatantly unsupportive of my continued efforts. M never wants to go to the gym anymore because he's working a lot, and trying to convince myself is hard enough lately, nevermind another person. I'm really just depressed, and taking care of myself in a balanced way is just unappealing and overwhelming. I'm sure I'll feel differently about this in a little while, but for today I'm gaining weight back and I feel powerless about it.View Thread
I'm so glad your healthy habits saw you through, and so glad you're in a good frame of mind. Congratulations. Have SO MUCH fun shopping with your friends! That sounds like such fun! Have fun buying some new stuff for your new you!
I weighed in as the same as I did last week 136.8. I vacilitate between there and 138, depending on the day. I'm OK with it. hahaha Body, I know your tricks and I know you're getting ready to lose again.
BUT. I'm going away this weekend to a heavenly retreat with some friends. I've planned the food itenerary (because I LOVE to plan, make lists, save money and whatnot), and it won't be tooooo bad, though honestly more food than what I typically eat at a time, but calorically equal to what I eat at home...it's also probably going to be a boozefest...but also a hike and swimfest! I'm not going to worry about if I don't lose any weight this weekend, is basically what I'm saying.
Keep up the awesome work. Even though your scale change isn't substantial, your mind frame is. View Thread
You shouldn't need any vitamins if you can meet most of your nutritional needs with food.
I tend to eat most of my food before 6. What are you currently eating? Food journaling helped me a lot when I was starting, writing down everything I ate and when I ate it. It helped me really get a clear picture of what I was doing, and how I could improve. Maybe give it a try?
Not a huge loss, but losing is consistent. I've been hiking a lot but not gym-ing a lot because M and I have both been burdened with really gross allergies this past week and any kind of strenuous physical activity makes me produce mucus to a really embarassing extent and I haven't wanted to be wheezing next to people at the gym. hahahaha
Eating well has become second nature. I crave fruits now more than candy. I'm really happy.
My dermatologist appointment went really well. He said he could tell I eat mostly natural food and said that even though I have semi-bad occasional acne, my general skin clarity was actually pretty good. My dentist appointment went really well, I should only be using my retainer for a few more months before I get my braces put on...and my therapy appointment went really well, too. Really well. I'm really proud. I was honest and forthcoming and really tried to trust him.
Today was my five year anniversary at work. I got the best review I've ever had at my job, and I was asked what I wanted to do for lunch to celebrate...I said "Not eating bad food would be a bigger help!" and everyone laughed and my boss paid for my sparkling water and veggies. I know M will want to take me out for dinner, but I'd really rather go for a walk with him and chit-chat.
Still feeling motivated and strong. Hope everyone else is, too!View Thread
Breakfast 2 rice cakes, a kiwi Snack Yogurt, celery Lunch Italian wedding soup...who knew I really like spinach!? Dinner Ground pork and pepper stir fry with a lil' bit of rice
I have a really, really good feeling about this week. Gonna hit the gym all week, gonna keep up with healthy eating somewhat easily because I've organized my days off with some appointments to keep myself pleasantly busy...and to exacerbate my good health decisions!
Tomorrow is a demetologist appointment, the day after I see my orthodontist (and hopefully get my braces put on!) and the day after, I start therapy. Yeah. Terrified.
At the same time though, it doesn't make sense to be taking such good care of myself in regards to what I eat and taking no care of myself in terms of other areas I'm displeased with. So, massive self-imporvement overhaul. Can't decide if I'm really excited or really nervous for the process, but I am really excited about results! View Thread
(huge hugs) hehehehe Keep up the "good' work, lady Seriously though! I think sometimes the variance is key...hahaha whatever excuse to have a few bad days, I suppose.
I've also had the thought, like, I wish I could understand my biochemistry better. I've debated going to a nutritionist and just asking a billion questions, but I haven't gotten around to it. You're right though, it can be enraging when you're totally "good" with no reward hahaha but being "bad" with no bad consequence is pretty sweet.
Good to have you back Hope everything's going alright for you guys.View Thread
A drop, barely. But a drop, so I'm pleased. I've been really good about not eating excessively after like 5 PM and thats making the difference.
Hiking every day this week has made me feel slightly invincible. Hiking and going to the gym has been really intense. My food intake has been kind of awful the last few days, eating some ice cream and whatnot, but my activity has really necessitated more food...just gotta work on the choices!View Thread
I keep getting stuck around 138/139! These last 8 lbs have been harder than the first twenty, geez! But, thinking about it, even at this snails pace, I've lost 8 lbs in three months. If I can keep that up, I'll be done losing weight in six months. That doesn't sound bad.
I've been hiking like a maniac, though, every day this week so far and still averging an hour or so at the gym four times a week. Even though my weight loss has slowed to a crawl, my fitness level is on a huge upswing. It takes so much effort for me to break into a good sweat now, I'm so proud.
Breakfast Yogurt and flax seeds Snack Apple, string cheese, dark chocolate Lunch Not sure yet. Most likely some soup. Dinner Ground pork stir fry. little bit of brown riceView Thread