Hi all, I guess it has been nine months since I have commented on anything on here, I've been busy with kids and work and life in general. I initially stopped as a "vacation" from thinking about dieting and losing weight for myself because it was becoming overwhelming, but I have been lurking. I was stuck at that 193-194 lb mark for much of that time off, so right before Thanksgiving I gave up and decided that I would eat whatever I felt like whenever I felt like it over the holidays, and I was sure that I was going to gain at least 10 lbs then I would get back to watching what I eat when I start back at work. I was so wrong about the gaining 10 lbs. Instead I lost 5lbs and now my work clothes definitely don't fit. They were loose before the holidays but now they are falling off. What I did find through this experience though is a lot of the healthy changes I made for myself stuck even if I wasn't consciously working towards them, which gives me hope for maintenance later. I let myself eat however much of whatever, but after a year of watching how much I was eating, I couldn't eat a whole lot of anything. I also was not interested in high calorie high sugar high sodium foods. Ok, there were some snicker doodles, brownies, chocolate cake, and pepperoni, but not very often. I have been wondering if I was eating too little and that is why I was maintaining instead of losing. I will say one thing though; since I started work again a couple weeks ago I have been craving sugar much more than usual, and fighting that with lots of extra water. Every time I want sugar I just have a big cup of cold water to fill my stomach and it staves it off for a while. Anyway, the kids are doing great; the four year old is now in an eating cycle. She is even eating meat, which she has never been a big fan of, mostly because we explained that since she is in a ballet class now she needs to make sure she is taking care of her muscles and bones by giving them the nutrition that they need. I also put my soon to be 8 year old son in a jazz dance class. His dad finally gave up on pushing him into sports when he coached his flag football team this fall and my son was the only one not really interested in playing. My husband would be on the field coaching the kids and really getting into the game, our son would be on the sideline chasing crickets and pretending he was a dinosaur. To give my husband credit, it was our son's idea to be in flag football and my husband was approached by the head of the program to be a coach when they split up from the instructional practices to teams. After the month of twice a week football games, my husband threw his hands up and said "Put him in whatever you want, he's not interested in focusing on sports right now." My son's class has two other boys and like 6 girls ("two girls for every boy") and I am hoping with his always wanting to do anything to impress girls that positive peer pressure will set in on him focusing on his body use in space. He's a little spazy (not in a medical way, in a I don't want to sit still so I jump around without thinking first) so it is an issue. My three year old now feels left out because her birthday is after the deadline so she can't join a dance class till the fall at the studio but the local high school dance squad is holding a clinic next month that we are going to sign her up for. It's a month long and ends with a performance at a high school basketball game. She is really super shy so she may not actually perform but I will let her decide then. I just want them all to have a focus for their extra energy because I can't take my house being torn apart and don't want them sitting around like zombies. My husband graduated from college, finally, and has an audition with the Detroit Symphony Orchestra next month. We are both so excited even though he probably won't get it, the audition experience is what he needs to get out there. Sorry for the novel. View Thread
Don't look at it as an "I have to make a huge life change all at once right now!" experience, that is what has worked for me. Start off with a few simple steps. This time I had to look at weight loss as just me wanting to get healthy not just lose weight to look good or anything like that. I started by just watching what I ate, not how much or how many calories, but what I was eating. I didn't really deprive myself so much as say I had to have so many servings of veggies in a day before I could have a fun sized candy bar, and then just one. I made small weekly goals like to have five fruits and veggies a day for a week, if I didn't make it, I would just make that the goal for the next week, if I still didn't make it then I would chose another goal to keep myself from obsessing about it.
Take it all a little at a time, it's a journey, not a sprint.View Thread
There is a lot out there about how losing a certain percentage of your weight can decrease your odds of health issues. I think most of the adds talk about losing 5 or 10% if you're not going just for being skinny. When I started this journey I weighed 249lbs, I have been down now to 194 for a little bit. That means I have lost 55lbs. If I take 55 and divide it by 249 I have lost 22% of myself. 22%! My goal weight would mean I would have to lose 44% of myself, so I am halfway there!
What percentage of yourself have you lost so far? How much closer does that put you to your goal?View Thread
Ok, this is something I have been saying for a while but actually writting it down every now and then seems to help keep it all in perspective when it comes to food.
Think back to those high school days in a physical science class and you may remember that Calories are actually a measure of energy. At first a calorie (with a little c) was the amount of energy (heat) it took to raise the temperature of one gram of water by one degree celcius. Now it is used as a measurment for energy from food, with one big difference. A Calorie (with a big C) is actually a kilocalorie or 1000 calories (with a little c.) It is the amount of energy that can be found in food (i.e. the amount of heat a food would put off while burning to raise how ever many 1000 kilograms of water by 1 degree celcius) is what we see on the nutrition lables. If I haven't lost you yet, please hang on, and if I have lost you, keep reading and it might click.
So, where is the origin of all of this energy? The sun. The rays of the sun are eaten up by plants that are then either eaten by omnivores or herbivores (either animals who eat plants exclusively or those that eat plants and animals) which then in their digestion turn what energy they can from that plant into energy for themselves. If the animal does not use all of the energy they take in from the plants then they store it like little batteries as fat. If you are an herbivore, or vegetarian as humans call themselves when they are herbivorous, you can still store fat from the plants you take in although since the kilocalorie content of your food is not as dense as other forms of food it takes more to have leftover to be fat. Now if you are an omnivore like many humans are you take in not only the light kilocalorie pack of plants, you also take in the kilocalories packed much more densely (because it has already been processed once from plant to animal) and therefore really need less of the animal based kilocalories to meet your regular energy need. Since the human body wants to survive and therefore will pack in as much energy as it can and not want to let go of it, it can be easy to overly consume the animal based energy source and possibly even shun the plant based forms because it takes so much more of them to have enough energy to store. That is why everything tastes better cooked in butter (or other animal based fats that are easier for the body to break down and transfer into it's own fats or energy stores, not that fat makes you fat though, too much fat is what can make you fat as too much of any energy source can make you fat.)
Now, lets just think about this for a minute. Calories are energy, too many Calories for a days work will be stored for later work, they are stored as fat on animal bodies, so fat is energy. FAT IS ENERGY! Every ounce of fat you have on your body is like a battery waiting to be used. Sure, if it doesn't have to be used it will want to sit there waiting until it is needed as a survival tool and because of that your body will make you think it has no energy so it doesn't have to use what is has stored up. You will be hungry, you will want to take a nap instead of exercising or even doing daily chores, but it is just your body telling your mind it knows what is best for you without having all the information about how bad it is to hold on to that energy for too long without using it. There are some days your body will love using up these energy stores, like a kid sitting around playing a video game, it's exciting and fun. The more you use these stores the easier it is for your body to use all energy you give it through the Calories in food.
Look at yourself and don't think about how ugly that fat is, look at it and think "Man, my body has so much energy, I might as well use it while I can!" and stay motivated on your journey. My body is covered with batteries and I am ready to use them.View Thread
Ok, at least it is awesome to me, and seems to come on every time I am considering getting into my husband's Oreo stash this week. It's that new Gatorade commercial for their fruit chews or whatever, something I will probably never need or want, but everything that comes before the product actually reminds me what I need to remember to stay on this journey and stay healthy. The voiceover talks about how you can defeat yourself before you step foot on the field by eating and drinking the wrong things. It uses the word opponent but really that is what my cravings and bad eating habits are at this point, the opponent I want to overcome. I want to overcome my bad habits and unhealthy lifestyle choices but I have to make the right choices before I actually have to think about it. I have to (and we all have to) make it habit to say no to those good tasting but bad for us foods and drinks or we are defeated by those bad habits and are therefore defeating ourselves. I don't know why I took that comercial so personally the first time I saw it (sign of a good advertising agency and hook) but I really have and am so glad that commercial comes on at what seems like the perfect time over and over again. I will likely never buy their carb chews (for carbing up before a game without extra added sugar) but their commercial is very helpful in keeping me in check.View Thread
Laura, you should also remember that if all people talk about during or remember after is what was wrong with a great get together for such an awsome occasion it says more abou them than the person they are criticizing. It will all be fine and a good workout in the process. Like others have said, take care of you too. It won't be any fun for your if you are over stressed or sick from freaking out about every little thing. One trick I learned in theatre is that you have to roll with the punches and the closer the time comes for curtain up you have to be ok with whatever there is because there isn't time to change it anyway.View Thread
Thanks everyone, I have been so busy I haven't been on since I posted. I have known that calories are energy and fat is just stored calories since those days in highschool, I just have to write it all out every now and then to remind myself about how I really should look at my weight problems. It helps to stop yourself from looking at your fat as ugly and looking at it instead as stored energy.
Barb, I totally agree with the hoarding analogy also. I know when I graduated college with an 8 day old and a totally unsupportive husband (read angry that I graduated and he didn't and afraid I was going to move on so became a total jerk for a while) I really started gaining. I lost the weight from that pregnancy then found out I was pregnant again right after finally getting my baby to eat regularly (she was a lazy nurser and still to this day 4 years later getting her to eat is like pulling teeth, in fact I would rather be pulling my own teeth with a rusty set of pliers than fight with her regularly to get her to eat.) Then the post partum depression hit and I fell apart and piled on the weight. I was 195 when I got pregnant with both of my last two and after having my last is when I ate to hide the pain and dissapointment of my state at that time. I was hiding behind my weight because if people focused on that then they wouldn't have asked about everything else that was causing my pain because I felt it was all my fault, that something I had done caused all of the problems my family was going through. I still have days I feel completely overwhelmed and have to keep from going back to the depressed thought process. It is tough, but I am so much more than the dissapointments in my life, and hey, they have to be there for some reason because there are good things that come out of the bad. Out of manuer the roses grow.View Thread
Ran out of room, here is some more food for thought (pun kinda intended.)
So, what happens when we keep batteries around the house too long? They corrode and burst, becoming useless. You can't use a corroded battery to power anything because even if it does still have enough harnessable energy the acids will cause more harm to your electronics than it is worth. You can think the same of excess fat on your body. The longer it hangs around, the more intertwined it gets with your organs, causing them to not be able to function properly (i.e. type 2 diabetes, fatty liver and kidneys, fat pushing in on the heart and lungs, etc.) so it is actually more harmful to your body to keep them than to get rid of them. I am still useful so I have to make sure that my body is still useful, which is where going about losing these extra batteries in a healthy way comes into play so that I (think the electronic device) can continue to be useful. When I get rid of all of these extra batteries I have to maintain (just as I would perform maintenance on any electronic device, checking batteries for corrosion, etc.) my body so that I don't look in the mirror one day and realize I have a whole pack of D batteries sitting in the back of the junk drawer that has corroded to usless and dangerous.View Thread
I'm so glad you are doing better. Back problems are nothing to mess with, believe me, with both my father's and my own I know it's tough. It normally takes me three days flat on my back in bed before I can even get to the bathroom on my own when my back goes out. Then again, I normally do something to my middle or lower back that really affects my legs. Heck, this fall I completely threw my back out just putting on my bra! Now that was embarrasing to explain to people, hadn't done anything strenuous, just hoisting the old girls in the over the shoulder bolder holder and SNAP! I couldn't straighten up without it feeling like every bone in my back was grinding on one another. I lost 7 lbs in two days because I couldn't get up to feed myself or get anything to drink while everyone was at school and work so I slept. Made myself go back to work the third day and hobbled around like a hunchback, probably why I was still aching for another two weeks rather than being over it quicker by taking three full days to rest it. At least this time I didn't start vomitting and running a high fever like I have in the past when I push through the pain.
Anyway, it's a good sign you still lost weight and felt like going for a jog. You have worked hard and grown so much during this journey. I like to look at events like this as natures way of saying "Slow down and enjoy the sights, if you do this right you only get to do it once."View Thread