So, I haven't been loging before but one week every 3 or 4 months but I think I am going to start regularly logging what I eat. I am not setting it in stone because in the past it has lead me to some very unhealthy habits, like over limiting intake and just stopping eating for the day if I reach my limit no matter when I meet it (which can be breakfast if I am eating my mother's good old southern breakfasts without restraining myself) but I am going to try it out, one week at a time. I want to lose the rest of this weight and be overall healthy. I know I need to watch not only calories but sodium (which I never really have a problem with going over recommendations because I don't add salt to much) and protien (I likes my meats) and apparently saturated fats (I don't normally think about it because overall fat in what I eat is normally really low, but the ratio apparently is not.) Today I went way over on the sugar and saturated fat. This was partly because my niece was spending the night so we had a big breakfast then cinnimon rolls as a snack. Those messed me up from the start then the chicken fajitas we had for dinner were not lacking in dairy which put me over for saturated fats. Don't worry, the kids had lots of fruits and veggies throughout the day.
I am trying to approach the logging differently this time though. In the past I have looked at it as a running total for what I have eaten and what I have left. That is where I think I have gone wrong. This time I am going to look at it more like I have the rest of the getting healthy journey, as a learning tool. With it I can track my patterns and figure out why I am eating what I am rather than using it as a restriction tool that keeps me obsessing. Focus is good, obsession is bad, at least for me. Logging is for focusing on the why not obsessing about the outcome.
I feel like I did terribly this weekend with food. I stress ate things I shouldn't have and drank a lot of soda because I was exhausted by Sunday night. Saturday was beautiful so my family went for a picnic and flew kites all afternoon. I spent most of the time running after kites that my 2 and 3 year olds let go of but what was awesome was that I did not lose my breath once. My husband told me I looked funny running because he is not use to seeing me in a full on sprint. I gave him a death stare and he dropped it. Sunday was dreary so we stayed at home and I caught up on a few chores. It took me four hours to do what it takes my husband two weeks to do. I would rub it in but with his knee being hurt right now I'm going to give him a break. I guess all the extra activity counteracted the bad food choices because I am 2 pounds down from last week and am in Onderland. Woohoo! I just need to kep up the weight loss through everything going on right now. All of my slacks are falling off so I guess this weekend I will be belt shopping.View Thread
Welcome aboard. As others have said, husbands are the worst enablers and sometimes I feel like my hubby wants me to fail but I have to remind myself that the women in his family eat their feelings then blame the medical problems that come with obesity on genetics, "Well my mom was fat and had diabeties so it was only a matter of time til I got it." seems to be a family moto so I have worked hard to try and educate him on the truth of obesity related health problems. Now my husband and I are younger, I'm 28 and he's 29, but it finally started to sink in with him when after seeing his mother's unwillingness to make the needed changes this summer she died of a sudden heart attack in September at 55. It is a daunting task to take control of ones own health and there will be stumbles and flat out falls from the wagon but these are just reminders of what we are working for, not excuses to give up. I bet you will surprise youself with how much help you can be at this point in your journey. I have found that sometimes the best help is just knowing that someone else is going through the same thing you are right now or has in the past. It helps us all to stay strong and work out individual plans that work best for each of us. Look at what has worked for you in the past and see if there is a way you can adjust it to work for you now. Have a flexible plan you can change as needed to work for you at that point in time to reach your ultimate goal, lifelong health. We are all works in progress.View Thread
Thanks everyone. I was able to resist the oreos...that night. The next morning the kids brought them to me in bed so I ate a couple. What I found surprising was that a few minutes later my husband came in the bedroom and snatched them from me. Lol. Very uncharacteristic of him as he is normally the one buying me all sorts of junk when I'm feeling down to eat the pain away. I guess it finally clicked with him that I've been working hard to lose weight, well that or he just didn't want me to eat all of his oreos. Lol. Anyway, he went to the orthopedic surgeon today and they x-rayed the knee and nothing is broken but the scheduled him for an mri on thursday with the follow up appointment on friday, mostly because if he needs to have surgery we need it to be done next week during his spring break because he has already missed a week of school this semester from illness. The ortho said he thinks it's the meniscus but can't be sure without the mri so we will see. Hubby is out of work til it is better so thank goodness I got the accidental disability insurance that will make up for his pay, but that doesn't pay out til 30 days after his first day of missed work, so we won't see that for a couple more weeks.View Thread
So, I have already come to grips with my emotional eating (nothing for mad, lots for sad, normal for happy, etc.) and seem to have that under control but now I am having problems with the stress eating.
Last week my husband stood up and his knee gave out. After a couple days of going to work and being on it for 6 to 8 hours at a time it still wasn't swelling but it "burns" and was visibly not right. Finally this weekend he went to have it looked at at the local urgent care clinic where they told him they didn't know what to do and gave him a script for Naproxen (that's right, Aleve) and expect us to pay $150 for that. She didn't even touch it or look closely at it. Grrr. We aren't paying that bill! Anyway he went to his regular primary care Monday and they gave him stronger pain pills but they still aren't touching the pain, put him on crutches, and he isn't allowed to go to work. His knee started swelling yesterday so he went back and they gave him a referal to an orthopedic surgeon for monday so no work till at least the ortho looks at it, and we don't have insurance so we have to pay for that on payments. Ug. The knee cap is not in the right place and we are worried it is a problem with his PCL from research we have done, which likely means surgery. Stress, stress, stress. And during all of this all he can do around the house is fold laundry so I am taking up the rest of the slack and keeping our three kids in line solo.
Now that I have given the back story, I am finding myself wanting to eat incessantly. I am so hungry. I have never been much of a snacker but this week has really pushed me to want to. I have fought the urge most of the time but even now I know there are birthday oreos just a few feet from the computer desk and although my stomach is still full to the brim from dinner my mind wants to tear into those cookies like a kid at Christmas. I have been bringing more for luches than usual, in volume but lower in calorie count, and find that I eat about half then bring the rest home or throw it out because my eyes are bigger than my tummy. I am working on listening to my body, but I want so badly to gorge. I bought a lot of fruit this weekend to counteract my husband's comfort foods because he is feeling aweful so I have something sweet to eat when the rest of the family is eating the less healthy snacks. Stress sucks! Stress eating sucks more!
I know what I need to do, and part of the way to keep myself honest to what I need to do is posting for venting and thinking it out purposes. I will watch what I eat and not give into unhealthy cravings that are coming from my head and not my stomach. I will eat fruit instead of empty calorie junk food when I need something sweet. I will not give in to the unhealthy habits that come along with coping with stress, that is how I got to my heaviest and I am not going back there. I will repeat reaffirming sayings to myself regularly.
No matter what happens, we will all live through it if we keep a level head and focus on the big picture instead of the small details, and this is but a small detail.View Thread
Ok, I just read this and realized how bad the first paragraph sounds. Neither of us are failures to have made it this far! I know you have talked about how you felt that way while teeter tottering on that boarder and I know I feel that way since my weight loss has slowed down in recent months. You rock for your patience to count yourself in Onderland after you stabalized, that patience is something I often lack.View Thread
WOOOOHOOO! I don't think I will be so patient to wait till my weight stablizes to officially count myself in Onderland, but I am sure that if I fluctuate like you did I would feel like a total failure, I guess I will cross that bridge when I come to it.
Doesn't the shopping rock! I was so excited when I could fit correctly into a size 18 again, but sometimes I put on the bigger clothes to remind myself that just a few short months ago I was a size 22-24 and some of them were getting tight on me but now not even a belt will keep the pants up and the shirts are so big I have to wear an undershirt with them so as to not show my bra. If you ever feel down about your weight loss, try it, it feels great and keeps the spirits up.View Thread