After 5 1/2 years of sobriety I drank at the beginning of July. This was the beginning of two months of eating and weight gain. I am getting healthier mentally ie: not wanting to cut, bi polar mood swings under control, but physically have gone the opposite direction.
In May I was down to 252 from 286. I am now at 270. I know why...I'm binging instead of drinking. I'm trying to do it alone. I am not being honest. I am not being accountable.
What happened to my determination to post here daily? What happened to my determination period?
I have been reading posts here but too ashamed to post myself.
I certainly don't want to be dismissed! I get the wonderful opportunity to see a doctor that the insurance company directed me to today. He is going to tell the insurance company if my injuries from the accident are worth being compensated for. I'm kind of pissed off about it (can I say that here?) that somebody can look at me out of the blue and decide if my injuries are and will continue to be a problem for me. I am trying to turn it over and let go emotion about it but I am grateful that it will be over soon.
Thanks for letting me rant.
Breakfast: 16 oz coffee w/2T creamer 1 banana 6 dried apricots 1 Lychee/Mango chew Fage yogurt w/honey and granola
Lunch: Out at the Duluth Grill Salmon of some sort (I love their salmon)
Dinner: Grilled chicken wings Asparagus
Exercise: I'm going to be walking a bit in Duluth and hoping to walk more this evening at home.
Weight down from 270 to 267. Have a great day everybody.
I could be reading about myself here reading your story. It's so frustrating waiting to get the OK for a knee replacement.
I'm in PT now and using the bike and that's going well. I need to get off my butt and into the pool. I have a great new excuse in that I live an extra ten miles out of town and gas is so expensive. Boy can I come up with them! I realize that I will spend more money if I don't get healthy.
Of course a newbie is welcome. We were all newbies at one point.
I've been moving the past couple of days and have been soaked with sweat when everybody else is just a little damp. I understand.
I tried Fitday and WebMD food and fitness tracker but have found something easier. If you have a smart phone that will accept a bar code, Lost It will let you scan a bar code and put all the info. in for you. It's really cool.
If using all of the nutritional information doesn't work for now, just begin by counting calories and staying away from processed foods like Judy suggested. She's our Yoda .
I am a binge eater. I'm not a therapist, but I do know that for myself binge eating is not defined by how often it happens, it has to do with what happens when I start. It's like my alcoholism...I can go for a long time without drinking, but once I take that first drink my addiction takes over and I'm out of control. Sometimes I wish that I could just quit eating but that's not practical like quitting drinking is.
My binges aren't just overeating. For me, it starts out with simply overeating, but when the addiction takes over, I will eat anything and everything until I almost throw up. I will eat entire boxes of cereal or an entire thing of ice cream. I have stopped at the store and bought boxes of baked goods and eaten them all sitting in my car. It's disgusting when I think about it, but I realize that I have to love myself anyway...no matter what.
I have talked to my therapist about it, but never my MD. I honestly didn't ever think about talking to my MD. I know that binge eating disorders are very often co-occuring with other addictions and certain other personality disorders like my bi-polar. That doesn't mean that I can't do anything about it, but I haven't found anything yet that has taken that obsession from me.
Kim, I hadn't heard of food aversion therapy or a hypnotist for my binge eating. I'm going to look into that when I get out to California in November since I doubt if I could find anybody that would do something like that here in my small town in northern Minnesota. Thank you for that information.
We will keep at it Rachael until we get healthy! It's nice to be able to talk to somebody that understands. Have a great day everybody!
I have switched from the WebMD foot and fitness planner which I was very loyal to because I found the Lose It application that you can use on your computer or your iPhone. I love the flexibility of it because I wasn't remembering to log all of my foods when I finally got back to my laptop. Now it's not a problem.
My favorite part of it is that it scans barcodes and enters all of the nutrition information from there! Huge time saver. It's free for the basic app but you can buy more stuff if you want...I don't know what that more stuff is, but you can buy it if you want!
We had our garage sale today so that stress is GONE! We're finishing the move over the next three days and will be doing the final clean on our house Monday with the closing on Tuesday.
One of the nice things about all of this is all of the exercise that I am getting! Packing, lifting, moving, reaching, bending, doing the hokey pokey and turning myself around...you know. I've been swimming in the lake here at our temp. rental a couple of times also because it's been in the 90's here this past week (and that's pretty darn hot for us Minnesotans...especially with dewpoints around 70.)