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j9Celeste

Joined: 02/05/2013

My Story:

I'm going to try to put my story in again. I had done it months ago, but it disappeared for some reason...gremlins maybe!
I started gaining weight in the 1980's and by 1997 I was 315 pounds. I have been yo-yo dieting for the past 16 years. I have had short term success, but always end up heavier than I was at the beginning.
In January of this year I realized that I can do this if I do it in a healthy way...so here I am.
On a personal note, I have had challenges that have provided excuses for me eat emotionally and also because of medications. My challenges have not been more trying than anybody else's but gave me my own reasons to be unhealthy.
In 1984 I was diagnosed with bi-polar 1 but have slowly learned to live with it. A large percentage of anti depressants and mood stabilizers have a side effect of weight gain. I have been hospitalized ten times in psychiatric wards. The lack of movement and being that the only thing to look forward to were meals provides an easy opportunity to gain weight, especially after three weeks there.
My first marriage of thirteen years was very unhealthy and I binged through my entire marriage. Then I went through a divorce that was hard, as all are. My second husband killed himself which gave me an excuse to drink too much and binge.
My third husband has full custody of his two children so I have raised them. When we married, they were eight and eleven and were very angry. The stress gave me another excuse to binge.
In 1998 my father died and I decided on that day to quit drinking since that contributed to his death. Quitting drinking gave me excuse to binge eat.
In 2011 my husband and I were hit head-on by a drunk driver who was driving 80 miles per hour. We both survived which I will be eternally grateful for, but the years following have been a huge challenge. We both spent two weeks in the hospital then went to a nursing home. I was there, unable to walk, for two months. In the nursing home, as in the psych ward, the only thing to look forward to was eating so I did a lot of that. I was sent home by myself on a walker and again binged. My husband got out of the nursing home one month later which did cut back on my eating. But after that, pain from the accident have made exercise extremely difficult. Not impossible, but I let myself off the hook. My binging increased again.
As I mentioned, these events just provided excuses to overeat and be sedentary, but they didn't cause it...I did.
I am in a very happy marriage, have been sober for over five years, have a wonderful relationship with the children, and have a beautiful grandson with a granddaughter on the way. I have another surgery coming up but will hopefully be off my walker after that. It's time to be healthy. My knees and back have been under so much stress because of my weight.
I am using the WebMD food and fitness planner to help me track my calories, nutrition, and movement. This forum has been a support for me that has been very necessary. I now realize that I need to change my habits for life, and not just diet. I have a wonderful opportunity to become healthy and fit...I am going to take advantage of this. It's not about losing weight anymore...it's about gaining life!

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Good morning...or late morning...I'm getting a late start. My day turned to dung...

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Sharon, Nice to meet you too! Being in the saddle again is great, but I can't wait until...

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I am the same about counting only water as water. I drink the 16.9 oz Aquafina's (don't...

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Reply: Hello everybody

Thank you all for the warm welcome back. I feel the love. Celeste

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My first time doing this daily log. Do I update this at the end of the day? Breakfast: 1...

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I LOVE Statler and Waldorf. The best part of the show! Celeste

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I've been reading some of the posts and appreciate how you have been concerned for me and...

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I've been reading some of the posts and appreciate how you have been concerned for me and my husband.

Things are kind of settling down finally. My three weekends in the cities went very well and I so happy I was able to get down there for all of the festivities.

The second weekend I went to my sister's graduation after having had surgery on Wednesday. The surgery went really well. It was quick and the pain immediately after the surgery was less than it was before. The two scars have been healing well and I had the stitches out last week.

The surgeon repaired some damaged cartilage and ground down some bone spurs. We are all hoping that this will delay a knee replacement for a few years.

My husband is out of the woods. After they discovered the kidney failure they did a ton of tests, all of which were painful for him since they involved entering his body through a sensitive area. The urologist had asked my husband if he had ever broken his pelvis and he did in our car accident two years ago. They found that it had damaged his prostate and it needed some work. They did a "TURP" procedure (look it up if you're interested). The surgery took a couple of hours and he stayed over one night in the hospital. This was on Friday, and on Tuesday they took the catheter out to see if he could void. They decided he could go without it and we came home. The next day he had gone eleven hours without voiding so we called the surgeon. He said that he had a 2:00 opening and if he hasn't gone by noon to come in. at 10:00 he passed a blood clot and has been able to void since then. He still has blood in his urine, but they said that could last up to six weeks. He can't life more than five pounds for another four weeks, so I'm glad my knee is feeling better so I can help him out.

I'm slowly getting back into a routine and it's kind of hard after being out of things for so long. But my biggest step is getting back into a healthy lifestyle. I know that after I've been doing this longer than five months I'll be able to maintain the lifestyle through anything, but this time I wasn't able to. But I'm back in the saddle and it feels great.

I'll be able to start walking this week and I'm excited. Our snow is finally gone

and our grass and trees are green. We even had a fabulous spring thunderstorm last night.

Thank you again for always being here even when I'm gone for a while.

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Reply: Getting up and brushing myself off!

Hello all I just wanted to share a "SV" Since I got back to it, I have gone from 264 to...

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Reply: Have you ever WANTED to.....

Rockin gangnam style (artistic license to go with your gingham suit!) xoxo Celeste

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Thank you Kim. Such a wonderful way to look at it xoxo Celeste

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