I've noticed a slow but steady decline in fried takeaway food over the last two weeks-- even just now, I was able to bypass the pizza place and the Donut Bar in search for something healthier-- but it certainly hasn't been easy. Last night for example, after a boiled dinner of potatoes, cabbage, and lean protein (with very little salt/butter), I totally sabotaged the whole day by going and picking up a pint of gelato at 10pm, and working on the whole pint until past midnight when my homework was done.
Work is so stressful right now-- literally working 'round the clock with very little sleep; sleep tracking is showing that since Sunday night, I've spent 15.36 hours in bed. The doctor said that my sleep schedule must be adjusted, or nothing else, including weight loss, will fall into place.
Am very scared that going on the medications next month is going to result in weight gainâ€¦ so I'm diligently cutting out the junk and consciously adjusting eating habits to get in the groove. The positive side of the medications is that they may even out the brain chemical issues and sleep like they are supposed toâ€¦ and then I will be successful over time (just an inherent mistrust of medicine).
My weight gain is starting to be noticed by coworkers-- my boss in a private meeting the other day asked if I've talked to a doctor about my diet. Just having such a difficult time with all of itâ€¦ it is a viscous cycle with the two high-stress jobs and school. The doctor also additionally said I need to find a way to get to just one job, butâ€¦ I don't see how that is possible right now.
Mostly just sounding off-- feeling really lost in all of this. My friend Kym said I won't get anywhere if I don't stop beating myself up, and that I have to be kind to myself.
Someone suggested eating in front of a mirror in my underwear-- how much more self-abusive could it be, no?View Thread
By hitting In and Out on my way home after a stressful day.
While sitting in the ridiculously long car line, I decided to try something that would teach me a financial lesson for "treating" myself to fast-food.
My new tip/rule is this: If I go to fast food/gelato/takeaway restaurants, I will pay for the person/people behind me as a lesson in just how drastic the toll of bad food is going to have on my body in the future, as well as the immediate impact on my wallet.
My own order at In and Out was $13 -- the car behind me? She ordered for four people and it was $39.
So my burger, animal fries, and shake rounded out to a cool $52 dollars, that I could have spent on nice organic fruits and vegetables, a massage, put it into savingsâ€¦ etc.
Needless to say, I've been able to pass up fast-food EVERY SINGLE DAY since this slip up.
Maybe try it? Also, â€¦ it puts a lot of good karma out there and makes the people you pay for feel good...View Thread
Stepped on the scale and have somehow managed to shed 9 pounds in the last two weeks. I've been steadily moving away from fast food-- with the falling off the cart once in the last two weeks.
@Kathy, you are totally correct in that observation, hence working with the therapist. I haven't been taking the time to enjoy myself, and this Friday was huge wake up call for that. I attended an event and had dinner (very health-focused organic) with friends for the first time in seven months. Without enough play, I'm going to work myself into an early grave.
I'm not dieting per say, but working on changing extremely sabotaging habits and the relationship with food, hoping the rest falls into place, i.e. no more binge eating, breaking the fast-food addiction, habitually grocery shopping, etc.
In one week, I start intense cognitive therapy programs-- my job in the performing arts has allowed for 100% flex scheduling so that I may make my own hours to accommodate therapy, and to ¨heal¨. HR and my manager are 100% on my side for addressing the depression issues now in a comprehensive way so that in a year this doesn't come back ten-fold worse. Attempting to take full advantage of the accommodation to get better.View Thread
Thank you, thank you! There is a whole field of studies going on about the impact of social networking on weight loss (accountability thing)"026 excellent advice-- especially since I use all of it already.View Thread
Did a lot of soul searching yesterday, and decided that it is absolutely imperative to address the self-sabotoging habits underlying what appears to be just an over-robust appetite.
When I called my health provider today, and explained what has happened in the last ten months with the astronomical weight gain and reverting back from healthier habits to damaging ones, they put me on hold, and made an emergency apportionment to meet with them at 6pm!
Was grilled for an hour with questions and answersâ€¦ and starting tomorrow at 8:00am I'll be in three rounds of therapy: psychiatric, counseling, and group support classes to deal with the Binge Eating Disorder issues.
Am a big believer that when the time is right, the time is right, and my goodness did everything fall into place today. Really exhausted from all of the activity today though. There is nothing like working with five strangers back to back telling each one essentially "I have a problem," to land you where you need to be.
Food wise, I avoided takeout today, which is plus. Stopped at the grocery store instead and picked up a nice meal and lunch for tomorrow.