Hey its been a long time since I have had to post. I have been doing really good eating healthy and exercising a healthy amount. Recently however my co-workers have started diets and I am struggling because they are all make comments about my eating. They tell me I am eating too much and make comments about what I eat. I am eating healthy but their comments are getting in my head and I am starting to have guilt about eating and wanting to constantly exercise to loose more and more calories. It is really testing me because that is kinda what started me down this horrible path years ago/family friends and all others were constantly making comments about my weight and food I ate. I have been honest w/ my co-workers and told them I struggle with eating disorders but they dont seem to realize how bad it is and negative comments really cause me to struggle w/ it worse than usual.View Thread
Thank u everyone for such encouraging words. I am grateful I have this community to turn to. I have started talking more about my eating issues. Today someone took the time to ask me about my problems. I explained that eating disorders do not always start that way in the beginning, for me it started slow with exercise then more and more and eating less and less. That seemed to help a little It was also a huge step for me because I do not share with others easily about any aspect of my life so it felt good to explain myself to my co-workers. Again thanks for the advise it was well received.View Thread
Hi... I am definitely no expert but I have been in a similar situation when I started my recovery. I had suffered from a mixture of eating disorders that landed me in the hospital w/ kidney failure and several other prob. Even though my situation was different, I found myself struggling mentally with the weight gain. Thats the worst part I think of any eating disorder...the mental thoughts that seem unstoppable. Professionals are great to talk to one on one and the best part is what is said in the room stays there. anybody with any type of eating disorder deserve to be in a safe place to talk about it whether the eating disorder is mild or severe. I think talking or typing in this case helps filter the bad thoughts and keep the mind focused...thats just my opinion.
My Ed has been working in a cycle.Some weeks I don't want to eat anything and other weeks I want to eat everything.The weeks I splurge are the worst because of the guilt.I compare the way the guilt consumes me to the guilt I imagine a person to have that cheats on their spouse.Some days I want to dress up.You know feel pretty.Most days I want to hide in the house in my husbands baggy clothes. I have always had a consuming feeling of being invisible.I know it stems from childhood but I just cant get rid of it.These discussions have helped at least I have a place to talk about it.View Thread
know what you mean. all day long its bad thought after bad thought. its domino effect. i have tried to redirect my thoughts positive thinking and my efforts fall short. i spend a lot of time secretly crying over my short comings and then feeling guilty because of what i am doing to myseelf.its nice to know i am not the only one haunted by thier thoughtsView Thread
Hello, I wish I had words to say that would offer comfort or help, but I don't. I am 24 and thought my dark days were behind me. I became anorexic and bulimic in high school too.I know eating disorders never go away or are magically cured, but I thought I had it under control. Until recently all I can obsess about is weight and food. I'm fighting to make myself eat and not to purge. But I'm fighting it the best I can. I commend you for your fight and hope that you stay strong. Your here talking about it and that takes strength. I wish you the best.View Thread