well i'll start out by saying hello, i am 40 years old, mother of two and i am dealing with anorexia and have been for many years now due to the eating disorder i have developed a heart condition, multiple cerebal aneurysms for witch i have already went through a brain surgery and there are much more issues, however dealing with the eating disorder is an huge issue on it's own and the thinking of food is so overwhelming i have become so extremely afraid of the thought of eating that it alone makes me sick, and now i have another dilemma i must face and that is breast cancer, i don't know if i should be angry or cry, honestly, i don't know what emotions i should be feeling i think i am in shock i just don;t know, and to top that off i am being told that i must increase my calorie intake and not only that many of the drugs cause weight gain i don't no what to do i sit back and i just want to die is life really worth fighting for? if anyone has any words of wisdom it would be so much appreciated,View Thread