I suffered from anorexia when I was 18 ; i went to see a psychologist for several years and I then stopped as I had to move away from my home town. I also realised my anorexia had been triggered by other things in my life that I couldn't control and that was why I turned to controlling food.
I am now 27 and I am anxious to see that my old ways are kind of back...I have been feeling very anxious and guilty when I missed my gym session, I count the calories I eat in a day, I weigh myself daily and I get quite agressive/ in a bad mood when I feel I've eaten something too 'unhealthy'.
I have been wondering for a while: when you have suffered from an eating disorder at some point in your life, can you ever manage to free yourself completely from it? Or will it always be a life-long struggle, with its highs and lows? Even if i know what triggers my anxiety and the reasons that i try to control what I eat, I feel it doesn't really help me anymore.
I went to see a therapist again 6 months ago but i felt stupid talking about how i control my food, as i already knew why.
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