HI there, im new to the boards as well. i can relate. Ive battled an eating disorder since i was 16 (i'm 30 now). Despite being in recovery for some time (my last time in any kind of treatment was in 2008), i still have my moments. There are still some times ill be having a great time w/people at a meal, all the while planning the purge in my head.
Although my behaviors are very much under control 95% of the time, the thoughts are still very much there. The self hatred, the guilt and shame of eating....i'm beginning to wonder if it ever goes awayView Thread