recently went to the doc for the first time about eating issues i have struggled with for about 10 years. Im not under weight and recently have gained weight. ugh. so she told me she thinks i have borderline personality disorder and that my purging is a form of self harm? is this something anyone else has heard before? Purging is not my only symptom and this was my first time talking to a doctor. Im frankly embarrassed. I feel like a fatass and i dont know why i was seeking help in the first place. I told her that I was trying to stop on my own and that before, i was purging up to 4 times a day and i had lost 60 lbs in 4 months but i think she was just judging me on my bmi. I was reading about BPD and it is def something I could have but also says you can have it with EDs alot and other disorders. I dont plan on taking any medications for that because they all cause weight gain. and actually my doctor told me to lose 20 lbs. and i got depressed. i gained 6 pounds and felt bad so i cancelled my appointment because i was afraid of what she would say to me. i dont know what to do.View Thread