I'm here because I would like advice on my disorder. For several years I have worried about my weight but in the past two years it has become progressively worse. I'm 5'7 and 105, I used to be 130. My family and friends tell me daily I'm too thin and I need to eat more. I restrict food often and I spend 80% of my day, even at work, thinking about what I ate, what I'm going to eat, what I should eat, the calories in the food, and how I'm going to burn it off. I have developed a huge fear of food and get very stressed and anxious. I use laxatives aprrox. 3 times a week when I feel I have eaten too much. Food has started to make my stomach bloat and I'm not sure if this is related. My mood has started to change and I've become anti-social and depressed. I have thought recently about therapy but I fear that if I get help I will gain weight. When l look at myself I often think I look fat in certain areas and don't understand how I fit in a size 0. When I see pictures of myself I sometimes think I look too thin and unhealthy but if I try and eat more I feel guilty and just start restricting again. I feel extremely upset about all of it.View Thread