Yo yoing or I call it the seesawing. At some point you have to get off it. When you do. The things you tell yourself on an hourly schedule is that you love yourself. Hide the scales and mirrors. You need to put distance between you and the yo yoing. Do not concentrate on your weight. Think about you and being happy, about doing stuff. Enjoying your life as best as you can.
I am not going to go ino dieting and all of that. I can only talk about keeping your emotions and emotional eating in check. Learning to love yourself goes a long way.
Of course you want to be loved, find a man. The biggest step would be to get of the seesaw and accept yourself. You are not helping your dating potential by starving/binging and being on a roller coaster. But even if you are still yo yoing don't get down.
You need breakfast. Make it the night before. Part of yor trouble might be that you are not keeping your energy level in you. Too long without food even if a few hours you may have the tendency to eat more or in your sleep.
When I was getting past my seesaw I ate tiny amounts of nuts/raisins each hour. I stayed away from anything too sugary to stay away from crashing.
I am pretty much babbling right now as work has me pinned down and I cannot concentrate.
Believe in yourself. You weight is not the issue. It is you believing you are not good enough. You are.View Thread
The catch phrase you hear these days is i is a "lifestyle" change rather then a diet or what have you. You have to change the way you live or you will continually bounce back and forth.
That said, I would say a few things. Tons of exercise with little food dooms you to failure. I do not care how resolute you are you will eventually break. The key to most things in life is moderation and commitment. Follow the tortoise rather then the hare approach to life.
Be well. think well. forgive yourself. accept yourself.
One meal a day is not a disorder. Be happy about that.
What I guess is happening is that each meal you have is just a few calories too many. You are just getting that slow creep of weight gain. Just eat slightly less.
The disadvantage to 1 meal a day is that I thought I read it is harder to get your needed nutritional requirements. Something about one meal pushing through your system doesn't allow the trace elements to be absorbed as easily. Take a multi if you are not. When you eat that 1 meal. Try eating it slower then normal as another thing with one meal is if you gulf through it you may be eating more then needed before you realize it.
Oh no. I was no suggesting to open up to them. I was saying that you are a least in a position to make new friends. Building a few people to do stuff with will help you. Keep your problems to doctors, here, and possibly family. Others do not need to know your business.
Reach out and meet people. Maybe have a gathering? Fixing yourself should really be done by you and you yourself. Things that help are doctors, books, people with the same issues. Without you wanting to better yourself nothing I or anybody else will help. It is not to say that they may give you the right spark. What sparks in your life? What makes you happy?View Thread
Speaking from personal experience. The less you eat the more depressed and anxious you will become. I understand the control factor. Why do you not try the love factor? Why can you not try to love yourself and who you are? Many many times I go to sleep telling myself I am ok that I love myself I love myself when the world's stress gets to me or my reactions to it. I too moved. It is very very hard. I feel your pain in that. Are you able to converse with people in your area/job?View Thread
You know you are caught up this struggle. Thank you for sharing and I wish it was on better terms. You and I know that what you are doing isn't going to end well if you keep up at it. Take stock who SBee is. Who she was and what she wants to be. It is easy for us to think that if I were only a little thinner I'd be liked more or asked out more or feel better about myself. You are 105 now and most likely not happy so you may say maybe I'll be happier at 100 or 110. But will you? Love who SBee is and not what she looks like. Think of things you would like to do, experience, strive for rather then what you weigh. Sometimes it is helpful to look for role models who you can mirror or strive to be like. If you can see a therapist it might be worthwhile. Sometimes you just want to try to step out of the box and break free from the routine/rut you are in.
I totally understand the fear in gaining weight. I get that. I really do. Our bodies need nutrition to exist on and more so to really live. You are depriving yourself of the energy needed to be social, to be confident, to be who SBee is. See a physician and ask HIM/HER to give you a realistic weight to be at. Think of that as a goal. I know I get weird if my weight gets too low. On the same note I get pangs of fright if it gets too high. Right now you do not have a weight that you are confident in. Have a professional give you that. And work towards that. Have that as a goal. You needn't gain or lose it in a week but have ha as a number you want to get to.
Be at peace with yourself SBee. The world is yours.
TRUST - I cannot agree with you more. BUT you also should not let one bad experience stop you from getting the help you need. You tell the new counselor you will not tolerate any disclosures without prior written approval.
On thing you do need to get a grip with is that the very secret of your struggle also weighs on you. Accept it and that maybe people know. Do not hide it but don't blab to the world either. It is about accepting yourself. Work with the pieces without shame and put yourself together.
Thirty minutes is good. What you want to watch for is being too rigid. Saying I have to do this or that workout. You do not. You do want to get healthy but not at the cost of your sanity or even your health. What I mean by the later is that if you get a cold or flu. Take the time to get better before working out.
Keep your mirror time to a minimum. You are only judging yourself and we are always our worst critic.
I understand the fear of not liking yourself if you gain weight. Look at it differently. Say to yourself that adding weight would be unfortunate and would be dealt with but I still deep down love myself.View Thread
The dangers are an electrolyte imbalance which can cause heart failure, erosion of the teeth enamel, and overall poor self esteem.
You really do not beat B. You manage it and let it slide away. It will almost always lurk in the corners of your mind but in time it is less and less an issue. The biggest issue I felt was breaking the cycle. Spending a few weeks away from it so that the body can resume processing food normally. I always felt there were two issues. The routine and the psychological. You have to understand and work on both to put it in the past. It can be done.