Jennifer, I sooo understand all that you wrote. I just posted here for the first time and hour ago. If you are surfing the discussions you can find it titled, New to Discussion. Looking to share.
I am a SAHM of 4 and have struggled for a year. I am such a ball of emotions at any given time: angry, sad, crying, want to sleep, in pain, frustrated and then can be positive, happy, outgoing, empathetic... I'm learning how to live. I am on cymbalta as well. I reached the lowest I've ever been in terms of depression. I don't know that the pain is better because of it be I am certainly not as depressed. The cymbalta has other side effects though that I don't like but I can manage those.
Do you have trouble sleeping? If yes, what helps you stay asleep? sleep meds? I struggle with this every single night.
I am happy to have found a way to share and talk to others. I hope that you enjoy your day today. God bless you.View Thread
I understand. I was able to enjoy the holidays but it was difficult to be all that I used to be before this illness. I have had symptoms for a year now. I hate it. As I'm writing this my arms are hurting and a few other things... I have days where I am positive and I just accept it and deal with it and then I have horrible days where I just keep asking why? and get so angry and sad and am almost speechless. It has taken me awhile to help my friends and family understand exactly how I feel and what I go through. I have done this by sharing with them articles and webmd newsletters. I have never been someone who wallows in self pity and don't like to be a downer and share my woes, etc. But I have found that I need to be more open with my feeling and my daily suffering with those around me because if I don't I get angry because they don't understand. How can I expect anyone to understand or be helpful if they don't know what I need or what I'm going through? It's a learning experience daily. I have found out quickly who my real friends are and have realized the depth of capacity of caring of others too. Some people just can't or won't understand. And it is better and healthier for me to surround myself with those who don't challenge me too much to explain, justify, or feel like I have to defend myself. Life is hard enough, physically, emotionally, mentally and physically.
I will pray for you that you feel some comfort today and some peace in knowing that you aren't alone and that there will be brighter days. The best advice I have is from personal experience: Enjoy the good days and do what you can to smile and be active. And on the bad days take care of yourself and give yourself what you need. Don't feel guilty about resting. Smile on the outside. Love others. Learn to see yourself as a gift and a beautiful mess. God Bless you.View Thread
Hello. I have had symptoms of Fibro for a year now and was "diagnosed" in May. I used this in quotes because we know that diagnosing is a process of eliminating all else.
I am a writer/author and although I find it easy to write about other things it is very difficult for me to put into words how I feel with this chronic illness. Perhaps not because I can't find the words but more because I am frustrated and angry and at times in denial even. Is this really my life now? Tired, depressed, sore, sad, limited, sick...it goes on and on. I am learning to do the best I can moment by moment. It is amazing though how I have changed mentally and emotionally. I am a very spiritually sound person and have great faith. I believe that this can be a sanctifying illness if I can only see it as such. And then again I am only human, which means I cry and want to curl up in a ball some days too.
I have four children and a husband and thanks be to God I have been a stay at home mom for most of my marriage. I am truly trying to see the gift in this illness. Why me? and then again, why not me? Several times I have thought that tomorrow will be different. It will be a better day. All of this will just end and I will wake up from a bad dream. I will be able to go running again and lose these 40 pounds that so quickly have become my unwanted baggage. I will shed this body which has become my prison. I have wasted moments...days... living for the future while watching the present slip away. All the while, my kids are getting bigger and older. My husband is excelling at his career and continues to climb the ladder of success. And I sit in my own world of sorrow and scream silently within.
My New Year's resolution is to take back my life which I feel has been robbed. I won't simply lose weight but will gain life. I will be a part of the moment rather than watching it slip away. I will silently accept the pain and offer it up to God in return for the peace, comfort and strength for someone else who needs it.
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