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Hi and Welcome to Our Family... You are not alone in this nightmare... I had the...

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Hi All... I hope you are enjoying 2012... it seems to be flying by lol... I can't...

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Fighting Edema so bad it has fluid in my lungs

Since my last diagnosis of Parkinson's Disease my health has gone steady down...

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JD and All.. Every morning I struggle to get up out of bed for my coffee and alone...

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JD and All.. Every morning I struggle to get up out of bed for my coffee and alone time before getting everyone else up... Everyday fighting the concept that I am a burden... And every night going to bed a winner... Some days I don't know how I do it and some days it comes easy... And some days I need to be reminded that I am a survivor... I have survived 7 bouts of cancer so what am I gonna do now... give up? I think not....

I face multiple illnesses and all seem to easily link and flare together... they hardly ever stand alone... All seem to cause a pain of their own also... I am on 30 some pills a day almost half of them being pain related...

So I watch as my son runs around trying to keep me healthy and a full time management job going... usually working 60 hours a week or more... then caring for his 2 small children... whom I try to help with but more then not it has gotten difficult...

He lives thru his turmoils in life not wanting to talk to me anymore about them for he fears causing a flare or setback with the stress... but I stress just knowing something is wrong...

I am on ssi so at least I can help a bit financially... I have to almost force him to take it tho.. He is just one of my 3 great kids... All 3 have taken turns being with me and helping me... And have given me and still give me unconditional love and support... They are a source of my strength... God is the other source... Without them I know I wouldn't be here...

I pray and meditate for strength and self acceptance every morning... Granted it I can find the human side of me... and be me even tho all the illness has destroyed so much for me... And that is why I go to bed a winner every night... I am bipolar manic depressed also... so it keeps life interesting... I have huge anxiety and big problems with PTSD... And a hermatizing problem... MS, RSD, FM, Parkinsons, Deteriorating bone and disc disease... scar tissue on major nerves... muscles that don't work other then to spasm and jerk... I can hardly walk... but I am still not in my wheelchair 24/7... should be maybe but not ready to give up the fight... lol...

I count y blessings every day... and they are many and yes my being alive is still top of my list...

I am human and do falter... I do get angry... discouraged... depressed I am not the old me... but I am HUMAN...

I still love life and love those lives I touch and those that touch mine...

Be strong... Love yourself unconditionally... accept you as you are... and keep believing in life...

take care... soft gentle hugs... love Jan/DakotaView Thread

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Reply: Monday, Monday ****8/20/2012 ****

hi all... long time no visit again... been ill for so long and under stress I could...

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Reply: TGIF****ROLL CALL *** New members too 7/27/2012 **...

good to see u again squarley... take care and feel better soon... hi to everyone......

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What a life... Gotta love it...

Happy Monday to us all... I had a wonderful weekend even tho my x- dil wanted to...

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Happy Monday to us all... I had a wonderful weekend even tho my x- dil wanted to make it anything but that... We had a wonderful birthday party for my grandkids and I lived thru them.. I must admit I am very grateful to say I had a little help from a long lost friend to make that happen... When I was texted by some unknown number I didn't recognize... someone inviting me to a magical coffee date lol... no... no secret love... something that helps us feel better... lol... I automatically just said no... then she came back with is this Jan from blah blah... I am blah blah... remembering her right away... but never hearing this certain tone in her voice... I was dieing to see her...
She drove in and isn't the person she use to be... she use to have siezures left and right... drawing her very soul out of her... depressed, anxious, and angry... giving up on life and love... she walked away from everyone who cared about her... hasn't returned my phone calls in months... I gave up and now I can thank her for my first night with so little pain I didn't want to sleep...
She hasn't had a siezure in 9 months... insted of taking multiple pills a day she is down to one siezure pill... and insted of fighting life she is back to fighting for life...
Has her first grandbaby... a new fiancee... a business she loves because she uses the product and it has helped her... and she is all excited about being able to turn around and help others...
She handed me a $40.00 supply of coffee... Told me not to worry about it that all she wants is my testimony... I am never one to just jump on the band wagon... but there is something different about me... I didn't get hyper... I didn't get anxious infact I was so relaxed after a couple of cups that I didn't need 2 doses of my anxiety meds I am on 4 times a day... and I haven't needed this mornings dose...
I drank 2 cups of the black coffee while she was here and bought some mocha coffee and drank 2 later... I am happy to say that I sat with a sick friend and I didn't stress and fall asleep... I held up and noticed that my evening pain wasn't there... my pain that was normally a 8 or 9 by 5 or 6 pm was more like a 2... and I hadn't taken my morphine nor my oczycodone... mmm could this really be happening to me...
I won't jump to say this is going to cure me... I have too many problems to be so bold lol... but if I can get the toxins out and still drink my regular coffee lol... I think I can like this...
So between the successful birthday parties... having closed words with the x-dil... who boldly told me it was better for me to be ill then to be resting for being mad at her lol... wasn't mad but told her I was pretty insulted then... I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy... When I told her that she just looked at me... But maybe I just took it wrong or she just said it wrong...
Well... I hope all had a great weekend... I am going to take this energy and play on the computer... maybe play with my grandchildren... I would love to go swimming but the infection on my legs is still there... getting better but not fast enough for me lol...
take care... love to all... soft hugs... Jan/DakotaView Thread

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hi happy happy day... lotsa lotsa pain

When I sang Happy Happy Birthday Baby to my first grandchild who turned 11 today I...

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Reply: TGIF****ROLL CALL*** New members welcome****

Hi Hi... TGIF... It as been a long week and now a longer 2 days coming up... today...

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