I am struggling emotionally today...just throwing myself a great big ol pitty party. I will pick myself up soon and kick myself in the rear...just need some time to pout...
Seems like this should be the best time of my life..and it seems like the worse..like I can do nothing right..or if I do something right..something wrong still happens..today I was taking mom on some errands after spending the night..when a caregiver showed up..and I realized there had been a mix up in communication with the agency..so let her take mom..and mom was not a happy camper when I left. Then I had to get ahold of the gal that was going to show up at noon and tell her not to get there then..what a mess.
Came home to find the info on DH's hospital stuff..it was rather depressing..and plus bills as the insurance will not cover all..and not sure how much he will improve..
and I want to be happy for my daughter..but even find that hard to do, as I only see problems..I think she is already sorry...and not as in love as she thought she would be..maybe she is just tired..but I should be planning a nice birthday dinner for her on Sunday..not sure if she will be here or not..she and the bf went up to the mountains for the weekend..
Ok..time to get out of this party..and get on with some gratitude..
Thank you so much Nancy...I am so worried about a reaction right now..I have so much going on..
I know you are an advocate of the shots..and I have mixed feelings..not having had flu since I was a child..if then..I really don't want that..so have decided that one is out..NO will not do it..
I didn't understand the paper on Td or Tdap...I think it says both..will have to look again at it..I am somewhat ok with taking that..had these types of shots as a kid..and probably feel ok about it.
The shingles is the real question. I don't like live vaccines..makes me nervous..and I do know I got chicken pox at about age 35 and that was NOT fun..don't want shingles..but I am thinking about waiting until I am not having to be in a state where I can be called upon to take care of mom, dad or whomever at a moments notice..if I got sick from this shot, I would be in a bad way.
good for you for figuring this out..reminds me though,...of when all this started and my feet were so swollen..and I didn't even realize it..it was all the "you are overweight" and "lose weight" talk..and making me feel bad..and probably through medifast I also lost fluid..and that probably helped..interesting.
Just a quick hello. My SIL has been here all week and what a godsend that was...still much to deal with. My heart goes out to you Laura...I know we deal with many of the same things..wish I had the help on my side of the family, that my SIL has given to me...She went home today, and I am missing her already.
Linda..hope you get your eye problem figured out..sounds awful..
I will try to get you all caught up soon...still dealing with being tired..
I am off to work in a moment...and that really is "me" time..the only time I am not distracted by all the craziness around me right now..and OH....Cory...I am so glad you got a day alone...I agree, I think we do need this ...and not to get things done..just to crash...I hope you have a wonderful day of doing NOTHING !
I did want to thank you all for the wonderful notes..it is so great to be able to come here and know I have my friends here..with love and support..it means a great deal..
I will try to keep you all in the loop of all the craziness..but it may be here and there..
Linda..thanks for the notes on the theft ..but it was a couple of years ago, with the first caregiver,..and I reported it to the company, but there is little way to prove anything...
This has been an exhausting week,...so much going on. I have so much to deal with, and I haven't said much about some of it. I am going to be a grandma after all. My dd is a couple months pregnant. And ...no she is not married. She has known the dad to be about three months ! They are both in their 30's..so not exactly teenagers..They are very happy about it...but have so much to deal with.
And you know dad is in the rehab...and I have been staying some with mom...and realizing how bad she is getting to be. Don't know what to do about it..there isn't much to do, I guess. She is mostly dealing with her back hurting and having trouble walking..
And now for the kicker..my DH was in the hospital..and is now in rehab...He has some sort of balance problem...so they want him to do a week or two at this rehab place..but it is not a very great place...hopefully he can get better quickly..
And then there are the little things..like getting the truck smogged..and it didn't pass..so got to get it fixed..and have to get to work..so need someone at my mom's from 6am-9am..so I can go to work..and just having time to get some laundry done..ugh..I am packing things tonight to be ready for tomorrow..I do have a caregiver with mom tonight, but I will have to do tomorrow..