Overwhelming I understand, you just want off the merry go round and it will not stop.
Welcome......you will find most have to deal with more than one problem. The more I read they all seem to be some how related.
For as many people on this board you find as many ways of dealing through meds or alternative ways. I myself use a combo of both to make It through....just did my combination of yoga/Pilate's DVD for chronic pain, took my anxiety meds and 100 mil of gabapentin....now I will read a few posts play Mahjong for 20 min and off to bed.
We lost our Duke when he was 9, we were in Arizona and DH packed him on dry ice til time to leave and back to Wa. state he came. They would've sent his ashes to Phoenix and we not have known whose they were. When we moved he was dug up and he moved too. So do I understand, yes.
The memories of all the walks we took are never forgotten and the brown eyes of love always with us. He was a rescue from the pound so his love was true.
I still have two dogs the Shih Tzu always walked on the inside of Duke as the 70lb shepherd mix was his protector.....took a long time for her to get over his loss. It is still fresh pain and we lost in March of 2008.
So Maggie I do know how it hurts and hope your memories will eventually help you through this.
I am so sorry Angleswife if there are typos excuse me as I am really crying for you. You have way too much on your plate. I have been worrying about you shoveling snow but this is all just over the edge.
If I could hug you I would but not way could or would I fly cross country.
If another job is not an option and she will not open her mind to an attitude adjustment then it is up to you to change how you perceive her.
You do not need her approval or her permission to be sick. When someones view point will not be changed then you have to change how you view her opinion. Hard to do when your job is on the line
I spent years trying to get my Mother's approval and then just gave up when I was helped to see my Mom had to treat me as an adult. It took a while but I had to teach her to treat me as an adult. I will always be her daughter but I am her adult daughter.
I am so glad you have an understanding husband as you need someone in your corner.
Time is a flying and the flight seems to take less each year. I never wish time would hurry for an event as they all come too soon! Twenty some years ago I remember the year I turned 39 and two of my friends turned 40....all year I said I am not yet 40. By the time they were 50 it was not funny and at 60 I refused to think of it.
Did not sleep well as I was in pain and then somewhere off in the distance we heard what sounded like gun shots which woke up and scard both dogs. Once I did get some sleep after 4:00 DH tried to let me sleep, but I did get up at 7:45 hurried up and made his lunch and since then done nothing!
I hope this does not show up twice.....it won't be the same who can remember what I just wrote and then poof it was gone.
I am glad I have good friends to share (not complain) there is a difference. I run or should I say hobble from the ones who only complain.
Hope you are doing better, I did read about your ordeal. It was one that was so overwhelming I could not find the right words so I was bad and remained silent..........baaaad...........but sometimes you gotta take of yourself. So you take of you and get better.
I have dealt with this many years and there have been easier times and more difficult times. Even when I knew I had fibro with no Dx I could live a fairly normal life if I paced......I learned pacing at an early age as I never had the energy most of my friends had.
I had a very stressful life and eventually it caught up with me at 55 and to quit work. I have a lot of pain at times but am able to live a satisfying life, just have to tweak my wants and what I can do. I also make my wants include helping some one who also suffers be it from age or health. Sometimes it is just a card or phone call, but making someone else happy helps me.